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for some reason it really hit me tonight that im going to be here for a while. i knew this, but i guess the "high" of moving in and school starting and meeting everyone is over. ive kinda fit in here somewhere i guess. but i dunno, sometimes i feel like i dont fit in at all. but it doesnt matter anyways. im getting to know people who i wouldnt usually if i was at home and they are so much fun to be around. but nothing like you guys dont worry. its weird though. this has nothing to do with "fitting in" but i cant walk from one building to another without running into someone i know or just saying hi to someone. but at the same time i feel so alone and empty here. something isnt right, and i cant figure it out. i just keep finding ways of escaping it instead of figuring out why. and this is not right. and this makes no since really to me so it probably wont to you either so thats ok. i just felt like venting. besides that, im studying my bootay off like crazy and im learning so much. even though sometimes its all smushed together into my head and makes not alot of since. and i havent been to the mountains yet so thats frustrating. and im about sick of couples. all over. everywhere. holy crap, im going to scream sometimes. maybe im just jealous. and you should read, blue like jazz. its a really good book. now i need to get back to writing my paper on it.