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blahhhhhhhhhhh!!!
i feel really bored. but its 3:30. i shouldnt be bored. i should be in bed. ive found myself awake until 5:30 for the past several nights. i just dont want to go to bed. is that weird? i mean, im probably tired...id probably fall asleep if i just layed down (and my cat quit being a little bitch) but i just cant bring myself to do that. i dont want to. how boring.
yeah. im kinda bored with myself lately. not a big deal though. i feel like im in a good place right now. very...liberated? does that sound dykey? i dont know. ive been fairly happy. im in love with my friends. IN. LOVE. ok i lied. im not that bored. at all.
and talking on the phone for hours is 'so highschool' according to deke, but i just cant stop.
i decided that i was going to be crafty tonight around 11 or so and i made a really really neat huge envelope thingy to put birthday stuff in for jon (...except i dont have birthday stuff for him...) and then evidently got distracted cause i just now remembered that was what i was doing. huh. oops. i also got black spraypaint on most everything and learned what kind of paint you CANT finger paint with. oops. fuck paint brushes. and fuck well ventilated areas.
i also wasted an IPA. i am sorry beer gods.
i was doing really well at not eating after dinner but i ate a pizza a little while ago for no reason. i definately wasnt hungry. woops.
im going home with amanda tomorrow for her drs. appointment. and maybe play mario party with my brother. and maybe to do some laundry. big ups to nana. then i have to write a paper that i have absolutly no clue as to what the fuck its about. then i have to prepare my performance for friday. whatever.
fuck it. im gonna attempt sleep.
and in two days, my sun will finally rise.
i feel really bored. but its 3:30. i shouldnt be bored. i should be in bed. ive found myself awake until 5:30 for the past several nights. i just dont want to go to bed. is that weird? i mean, im probably tired...id probably fall asleep if i just layed down (and my cat quit being a little bitch) but i just cant bring myself to do that. i dont want to. how boring.
yeah. im kinda bored with myself lately. not a big deal though. i feel like im in a good place right now. very...liberated? does that sound dykey? i dont know. ive been fairly happy. im in love with my friends. IN. LOVE. ok i lied. im not that bored. at all.
and talking on the phone for hours is 'so highschool' according to deke, but i just cant stop.
i decided that i was going to be crafty tonight around 11 or so and i made a really really neat huge envelope thingy to put birthday stuff in for jon (...except i dont have birthday stuff for him...) and then evidently got distracted cause i just now remembered that was what i was doing. huh. oops. i also got black spraypaint on most everything and learned what kind of paint you CANT finger paint with. oops. fuck paint brushes. and fuck well ventilated areas.
i also wasted an IPA. i am sorry beer gods.
i was doing really well at not eating after dinner but i ate a pizza a little while ago for no reason. i definately wasnt hungry. woops.
im going home with amanda tomorrow for her drs. appointment. and maybe play mario party with my brother. and maybe to do some laundry. big ups to nana. then i have to write a paper that i have absolutly no clue as to what the fuck its about. then i have to prepare my performance for friday. whatever.
fuck it. im gonna attempt sleep.
and in two days, my sun will finally rise.