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im surrounded (maybe not always physically)
by some really great people. i truly am. i have alot of positive people
in my life, and i think ive done a decent job weeding out some of the
others.
thank you to anyone who has offered helping words and loving hearts. ive been doing uncharacteristically well. you probably helped. i hope you guys know how wonderful you are and i hope you know how much i thank you and appreciate you and am proud of you.
so yes. the pursuit of new friends is falling flat on its face. i just cant seem to hook them once i open up my mouth. oh well. im sure that eventually someone exciting will happen. or maybe this is just saying i dont need new friends? who knows. i just get lonely somtimes. we all know this.
but yeah. i am thankful for not only the people who have offered kind words and an ear/IM window to cry to, but the people who have actually been HERE for me this week, even before yesterday.
thank you anna for coming up and making me laugh and making me remember that things dont always have to be so god damn serious all the time. thank you for being hopeful when i got set up on that 'date' or whatever the hell it was. hey, we tried. and thank you for being a great listener. some things dont change.
thank you andy for being the silliest person i know. i know silly is a gay word, but it was the closest word to what i was looking for. thank you for being an obnoxious drunk, but not an annoying drunk. (and thank you for not vicious dictating me) thank you for trying to introduce me to new people, it was a noble attempt. and thank you for loving the black dudes in class with me.
thank you allison for being such a whore and making me feel better about myself and my past ;) haha jk i love you. thank you for giving me wonderful nicknames and for putting your little boobies on my window and for looking at sexy halloween costumes online with me.
thank you derek for being my ultimate fake boyfriend. im sorry i get mad at you sometimes, but i just want you to stick up for yourself and be stronger and not let everyone walk all over you all the time. thank you for a nice day trip to the coast and for getting your first tattoo with me. thank you for bringing me to your dad so he could hug me and thank you for actually being in my house pretty much every single day.
and thank you evan for...well for being you and being there and for accepting me for who i am. i feel like you accept me so much, and you havent known me nearly as long as most of the people i know. i think we are always smiling or laughing when we actually hang out and that is something i think we both need. i know that with you here, i always have someone i can say anything to without scaring away, and this has pretty much been proven. im so glad we became friends and i just hope with all my heart that this year will only bring us closer.
i love the rest of you, my friends, my loves, my motivations. let me see you so i can write about you too.
thank you to anyone who has offered helping words and loving hearts. ive been doing uncharacteristically well. you probably helped. i hope you guys know how wonderful you are and i hope you know how much i thank you and appreciate you and am proud of you.
so yes. the pursuit of new friends is falling flat on its face. i just cant seem to hook them once i open up my mouth. oh well. im sure that eventually someone exciting will happen. or maybe this is just saying i dont need new friends? who knows. i just get lonely somtimes. we all know this.
but yeah. i am thankful for not only the people who have offered kind words and an ear/IM window to cry to, but the people who have actually been HERE for me this week, even before yesterday.
thank you anna for coming up and making me laugh and making me remember that things dont always have to be so god damn serious all the time. thank you for being hopeful when i got set up on that 'date' or whatever the hell it was. hey, we tried. and thank you for being a great listener. some things dont change.
thank you andy for being the silliest person i know. i know silly is a gay word, but it was the closest word to what i was looking for. thank you for being an obnoxious drunk, but not an annoying drunk. (and thank you for not vicious dictating me) thank you for trying to introduce me to new people, it was a noble attempt. and thank you for loving the black dudes in class with me.
thank you allison for being such a whore and making me feel better about myself and my past ;) haha jk i love you. thank you for giving me wonderful nicknames and for putting your little boobies on my window and for looking at sexy halloween costumes online with me.
thank you derek for being my ultimate fake boyfriend. im sorry i get mad at you sometimes, but i just want you to stick up for yourself and be stronger and not let everyone walk all over you all the time. thank you for a nice day trip to the coast and for getting your first tattoo with me. thank you for bringing me to your dad so he could hug me and thank you for actually being in my house pretty much every single day.
and thank you evan for...well for being you and being there and for accepting me for who i am. i feel like you accept me so much, and you havent known me nearly as long as most of the people i know. i think we are always smiling or laughing when we actually hang out and that is something i think we both need. i know that with you here, i always have someone i can say anything to without scaring away, and this has pretty much been proven. im so glad we became friends and i just hope with all my heart that this year will only bring us closer.
i love the rest of you, my friends, my loves, my motivations. let me see you so i can write about you too.