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[youresonovel]

its nights like tonight when i really need a boyfriend. and thats so fucking trivial!!! i just feel like i need to be hugged and held and for someone to tell me to quit being an asshole and to just cry. i want someone to pick out the black clothes from my closet while i cried and heaved in bed. i just want someone to stare at with tears in my eyes

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[peacebestill]

sorry about your papa, dear.

he loved me. he thought i was beautiful. he was proud to call me his. i made him smile. i must have been doing something alright.

just remember that :)

[undrlyngprncipl]

this is so beautiful jen.
wish i was there.
i'm sure you're still making papa proud
wherever he ended up.

xox.

[queenjessamaho]

aww i'm so sorry jen. always know that i think you're beautiful too and i'm here for you when you need me.

[iheartjackswild]

I love you flapjack....you know I'm here

[_slightofhand]

jen, i'm so sorry to hear about this.
it sounds like your papa meant a lot to you, and you to him.
but the one thing you shouldn't do in this situation is blame yourself.
it's great that you realize maybe you weren't as appreciative as you could have been,
but it really does happen to the best of us.
everyone goes through some sort of wake-up call,
and you always end up going back to the past and analyzing everything you COULD have done.
but what's more important is realizing the changes you can make now,
and doing exactly what you're doing. appreciating the people around you, and letting them know.
i know we've had our differences.
but this past weekend, i had a really fun fucking time.
i wish i could have stayed longer, but i wanted to be back in time to prepare for shithole McDonald's
(ps, i'm quitting and moving in with trav by the end of this week).
you are one of the strongest people i know,
and i could never stop admiring you for that.

take care, and you can count me as one of the friends who's always here for you too.

<3

[mintymoose]

yeah jen, like anna said