april 13th 2004
i went running in the rain this evening and it was awesome. i think i shall run again tomorrow. i have no friends right now, well i do, but none that are like a best friend, no one to shop with, no one to go to concerts with...nothing...i have nothing. i need to call lindsey and see what shes up to. i was thinking about getting a job, but if i do it might be pointless cause i'll be starting school soon...hmm. i dont know what to do. i guess i just need something to do, i'm tired of doing everything on my own, or if i do go do stuff its with people that i have nothing in common with, so its retarded. i need someone that understands, i havent had that in a long while. and why are most of my friends guys? i think i'm making my life way too complicated right now. i need to visit emily, caroline and danielle, those 3 are the best. i'm sad i didnt hang out with them as much as i should have, cause its obvious now that i relate to them the best, and they dont talk shit...those are true friends.