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[youresokiller]

i dont know whats going on anymore.
im not sure if im going to san diego after all.
which totally upsets me.
i dont know if me and steven are going to stay together.
he keeps being so indecisive about me moving or not.
and i can feel him pushing me away.
hes being so mean to me.
im really trying to be understanding but damn, i have a lot of things going on too. its me here in limbo on where im going to be in a month.
we know exactly how his life is going to be.
im going through the same shit if not more.
i dont know where im going to live either.
im not able to stay at stevens moms anymore like i was told.
and my dad is supposed to be moving back so my room at my sisters is going to him.
i feel like no one wants me around.
and i dont know what to do at this point.
im just so mad at steven for dating me, getting my hopes up and leaving.
im hurting.
and i feel like im so fucking alone.

im losing everything.
as childish as that sounds.
but he is my best friend.
he is someone i am around everyday.
everything is being ripped from me.