"Go on just say it, you need me like a bad habit..."

[youresoempty]

The rain is pouring down and i wish like hell that i was standing outside in it. i wish that wouldnt cause suspicion. i wish that there was a flooding rain cloud right over my head drenching my face and clothes, and no one would be able to tell that im crying my eyes out, crying my heart out. i would like to say "i hope i never wake up"...but you have to be able to sleep for that to work, and i havent slept in days. i love you, i love you, i love you, i am so fucking in love with you! but i can never tell you. fuck you, i hate you, i hate me, i hate everything that is happening right now, i wish it would all just fade away and leave nothing left but clean white walls and smiling faces. But of course, no such luck. So fuck it, rain on.
Love,
Ginger