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God. We're all just waiting to see what comes next. We're just waiting to die and see what comes after, but we don't kill ourselves in case the future holds some laughter, some good times. That's what I call faith. Not some repressed gay priest who takes advantage of little boys. So maybe I've offended God more than a couple of times. But the God I believe in knows I believe in him, and he believes in me. I'm not a bad person, but I'm not a good one either. I just want to swing on a park swing. be able to close my eyes and disappear. If there was an American Territory farther than Hawaii, I would go there instead. It's a shame that I like having money and privilages, or else I would've been free from my parents a VERY long time ago. Freedom is something that can't be suppressed, suppress someone's freedom and what you get is your worst nightmare. When I'm 18, I think I'll name off to them all the drugs I've done, which by that time if I keep feeling as repressed as I do will be a nice long list, I'll tell them how many times I fucked in their own house, I'll tell them how many times I cried myself to sleep, how many times I thought about killing myself, how many times I cut myself, burned myself, and scratched myself in their own spotless beautiful fucking two million dollar mansion. It's fucking spotless when you look at it but jesus FUCKING christ its the biggest motherfucking mess.