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i am so drained in every way.
i'm missing too much school.
i talked to britt for a million hours today. that was really nice.
i don't know why i say i don't have friends. four people really care about me and they show it in different ways and i appreciate all of their viewpoints.
i've talked to three of them (russell is always away, wtf) last night and today for hours. i felt better saying things and figuring this out. i felt like we were making progress. that is, until i realized that he is hearing (reading?) none of what i was saying, so really, there has been no real progress.
i read through our chatlogs because i was trying to find a date or something, and he really is a sweet person. i mean, i'm not denying he isn't mean, because he is really harsh for no reason, but sometimes he is so sweet. there's no way that could be fake.
i wish he would stop avoiding me. i wish he would realize that i'm not so disposable. i wish he wouldn't take things out on me. i wish he would give me time. i wish he wouldn't tell me that wishes don't come true. i hope he is feeling terrible.
i'm missing too much school.
i talked to britt for a million hours today. that was really nice.
i don't know why i say i don't have friends. four people really care about me and they show it in different ways and i appreciate all of their viewpoints.
i've talked to three of them (russell is always away, wtf) last night and today for hours. i felt better saying things and figuring this out. i felt like we were making progress. that is, until i realized that he is hearing (reading?) none of what i was saying, so really, there has been no real progress.
i read through our chatlogs because i was trying to find a date or something, and he really is a sweet person. i mean, i'm not denying he isn't mean, because he is really harsh for no reason, but sometimes he is so sweet. there's no way that could be fake.
i wish he would stop avoiding me. i wish he would realize that i'm not so disposable. i wish he wouldn't take things out on me. i wish he would give me time. i wish he wouldn't tell me that wishes don't come true. i hope he is feeling terrible.