"I wish there were more words to say how much I like you"
that's what lame ass shit comes out of my mouth when I resist saying "I love you". I really do love her, but I'm not going to say 'in love', cause I don't know what that means. love is simpler, but uh... I don't want to fuck this up with words.
I mean we have never even said we are together, even though we are are together every night, and do the things people are together do. there is a concious effort to not fuck every thing up with words.
we don't have possesion:
but I had a dream that put me in a bad mood till I realised it wasn't real. in the dream I walked in on her having sex with someone else and just turned around. I think this dream was more about my own self asteem and not her "cheating" on me. for one thing I don't really feel that that would be 'cheating' (whatever we have it isn't possesion of a physical relationship), it was something more internal that was the stress for me.
dreams aside I am extreamly happy and have been having the best day of my life every(other?) day.
space:
we keep wondering when we are going to get tired of each other. spending like, every day except a few together for the last month (and a half) you would think we would get burnt out on each other. I've gotten pretty good at knowing when people need space and I let her know that it wouldn't hurt my feelings if she told me she needed some. seeing that she lives with and next door to my best nashvillian friends it's easy to be there without being right on top of her.
she shaved her head: it makes me sad that I don't have any pictures of her with the hot hair cut I gave her, but she is so fucking hot without hair as well.
I mean we have never even said we are together, even though we are are together every night, and do the things people are together do. there is a concious effort to not fuck every thing up with words.
we don't have possesion:
but I had a dream that put me in a bad mood till I realised it wasn't real. in the dream I walked in on her having sex with someone else and just turned around. I think this dream was more about my own self asteem and not her "cheating" on me. for one thing I don't really feel that that would be 'cheating' (whatever we have it isn't possesion of a physical relationship), it was something more internal that was the stress for me.
dreams aside I am extreamly happy and have been having the best day of my life every(other?) day.
space:
we keep wondering when we are going to get tired of each other. spending like, every day except a few together for the last month (and a half) you would think we would get burnt out on each other. I've gotten pretty good at knowing when people need space and I let her know that it wouldn't hurt my feelings if she told me she needed some. seeing that she lives with and next door to my best nashvillian friends it's easy to be there without being right on top of her.
she shaved her head: it makes me sad that I don't have any pictures of her with the hot hair cut I gave her, but she is so fucking hot without hair as well.