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[yourclementine]

what is that in his eyes? a mixture of lust, intoxication, fatigue. somewhere i think i know this. in the back of my mind perhaps. yet i trick myself, thinking that it's different. thinking that he cares. do i want him to? if he did then i wouldn't probably. well fuck it, do i want to be that? what about all those stories, all those movies. what was it my away message said? to get over someone old, get under someone new. too bad im not allowed to go under. and too bad i dont want to look stupid. cause otherwise, it would be easy.

whatever, it still felt good. at least, it was enough for me

ps. i havent slept in my bed since wednesday. hopefully absence makes the heart grow fonder and i will get some good sleep tonight.