The Last Chapter
Zac
I woke up to the sound of a gentle breathing swooping over my neck and a warm arm draped across my bare stomach.
I turned over to face him. "Jamie," I shook him, whispering his name loudly, "Jay, please wake up."
He grumbled quietly to himself and opened up his brown eyes to me. His pupils dilated prettily and he blinked back the sunlight that was streaming in through his bedroom window.
"Zac, you okay?" he asked me with a concerned look.
I nodded a little bit. "I miss him," I whimpered.
"Shh, don't cry," he said, stroking the back of my neck lovingly with his warm fingers.
"I'm sorry, I really am," I whispered, feeling guilty all of a sudden that Jamie had had to put up with me for days on end. I looked into his lovely eyes and collapsed into his grasp like a limp rag doll.
"Shh, shh. Don't cry Zaccy Boy, everything's going to be all right, okay?" He pulled my head up by the chin and kissed my forehead like a concerned parent would act towards their sick child.
I pulled out of his grasp roughly. "How the hell can it be alright?" I questioned him. I knew that I was frowning.
"It just will be," he replied, narrowing his eyes at me. "Come here Zac, let me help."
"I don't want you to tell me pointless lies, that's all. I don't want sympathy right now, I just want him back," I collapsed into tears yet again, dragging the covers over my frail and shaking body as a comfort source.
"Taylor loves you so much, you don't know how lucky you are," he said, gazing out of the window.
"Yes I do know how lucky I was, but ..."
He cut me off. "He still loves you, you are lucky, not was lucky," he said stupidly.
"I want him back," I screamed at the beautiful blonde who sat bewildered in front of me.
"Zac, calm down, please," he said, trying to reach out for me.
"No, I won't calm down. I love him so much and I can't take this, I'd rather die than carry on feeling like this, it's horrible ... I can't even explain myself properly. My heart is beating too hard all of the time, I always feel out of breath, I always feel like I'm going to collapse, and it's all because Taylor isn't here. I hate it all so much. I want to know where he is now, I want him to come home, I can't stand knowing that I'll never know him again. It's finished. It's over. There is no more of him here. Nobody will ever take his place on this Earth, there will never be someone like him again, and I can't stand it. It hurts so bad right now that I just can't cope, I ... I don't know what to do, and don't tell me that the grief will pass, because it won't. I would know better than anybody else. It won't pass me. I loved ... love him more than anything and now he's gone, I can't take that he's gone. I hate death, I hate it so much Jamie, I can't take this. It hasn't even hit me yet that he's gone. And he had to die in that hospital Jamie. I'm on my own from now on. It's all over."
"Zac, what are you talking about?"