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I'm a straight up mess. A big big big big mess. I don't even know who I am anymore. I am so lost between trying to be who I think I should be, who I want to be, who I know I used to be, and everything else I can imagine. I look to everyone else to define me, but who is me? Do we all pon our personalities off of someone else or some character? Can one experience change who you want to be? Is it too late to change? For the first time yesterday I wanted to be back in high school, and I wanted to do it all over again but in a different way. I am growing up so fast, and I don't even know who I am. I want to be young again, back at home, where I still had time to figure this out. Why can't things just click into place? I need my a-ha moment, I need my happily ever after now.