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I am done. Done with highschool. Officially. No more finals, no more classes, no more study guides or tests. It is such a weird feeling. I go back and forth on how I feel about graduating. I am SOOO excited. No one knows how excited I am to go down to college and get to meet new people and have my own life. A life where I can do what I want, when I want. Meeting new people down the hall is the most exciting thought to me. But at the same time I am super sad. Seems like an ovbious emotion, but it took me awhile to get here. I was really not sad about graduating. I was such a brat about it, and I had that mentality "I am soooo over highschool". But I realized last night that just because I am not graduating the way I thought it would be, doesn't mean that it is not just as great of a feeling... if that makes any sense. I have been blessed with so many good friends and so many good memories trhoughout highschool that I am going to miss SOO much. I will miss being at lunch, and just being dumb and eating a cookie and sub sandwhiwch every freaking day of the year! I will miss getting to walk down the halls with my friends, or my hand in yours, just having that feeling of getting through the rest of the day. The football games and basketball games, whether I was cheering in them or just giong wtih my friends I will miss so much. The weekends of endless days and nights spent with my best friend, or greatest group of friends I have ever met. To me highschool was perfect. It was exactly what I needed to do for four years.
I am growing really close to people who are going away next year, and that scares me. Cassie and Amy have become my 24/7 life lines that I do not know what I would do without. I can't even thank them enough for everything, but next year what am I going to do when I have a rough night and just need someone who understands? As it gets closer, and summer is here, I am soo excited, but taht is two months closer to saying goodbye. Goodbye to my family. I never thought leaving my family would be hard, but I know it is going to be. I am leaving behind a life that was me, but isn't anymore and I am happy about that.
I can only wonder what next year will hold for me, and I am so excited about that. A thousand different things could happen and I want to experience them all. Most of all I have hope for next year and what will happen. I think things are going to work out, I really do.
I am growing really close to people who are going away next year, and that scares me. Cassie and Amy have become my 24/7 life lines that I do not know what I would do without. I can't even thank them enough for everything, but next year what am I going to do when I have a rough night and just need someone who understands? As it gets closer, and summer is here, I am soo excited, but taht is two months closer to saying goodbye. Goodbye to my family. I never thought leaving my family would be hard, but I know it is going to be. I am leaving behind a life that was me, but isn't anymore and I am happy about that.
I can only wonder what next year will hold for me, and I am so excited about that. A thousand different things could happen and I want to experience them all. Most of all I have hope for next year and what will happen. I think things are going to work out, I really do.