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It's going to be such a bitter-sweet new years. I don't want to have to start a new year without you, but I have no choice. I told myself I would get over you and just have fun, but I can't. I hate how you are on vacation and have not called once. When you come home, you won't see me. I told myself I would talk to you in four weeks from today. I really don't even know why... what is that going to do? Do I think that all of a sudden you are going to want a relationship again? I guess I just need something to hold onto. I am waiting for you to realize how much you miss me, but it doesn't seem to be happening. I want to call you so bad, but I feel like you don't want that. You just want to be left alone and have no reminders of me or us. Whats going to happen when we go back to school? Ya I guess I will be busier, but I will still just think of you. I hate that I didn't choose to feel like this.