up way to early for tumbling :-/
Who says it has to be new years to make a change? I have kind of decided that I am so sick of myself and the way I act in certain situations. You think someone would learn that over and over again you cant always get what you want but then why do I act like that? I seriously cant STAND myself when I do that and I really want to make an effort to change. I want the people around me to realize how much I appreciate them.
So thanksgiving was good. Just a big family day but I like it like that :). Turkey is the best. What is even better is that this is a four day weekend :)!!!!
Festival of Lights tonight, should be fun. I miss the other people I havent hung out with in like a month, I wish we would all hang out again. I hate feeling like I am reason why people drift away and that I could have done more to keep them close. I thought I was so excited for Christmas but now that is it here, meh its not so great. Even though I love love love the holidays this one seems kind of empty so far.
I really need to work on that change up there. It really bugs me that I can do that to people and just give them such a hard time for no reason and act totaly out of my character and just be a totaly bitch. I do not even do it intentionally so I really dont get it. When ever I feel ignored or shut out it just turns right away into being mad and I need to learn to just deal and calm down. I really hope just telling myself this enough to make me change because if I dont stop there could defenitley be bigger consequences.
How was your turkey day? :)
So thanksgiving was good. Just a big family day but I like it like that :). Turkey is the best. What is even better is that this is a four day weekend :)!!!!
Festival of Lights tonight, should be fun. I miss the other people I havent hung out with in like a month, I wish we would all hang out again. I hate feeling like I am reason why people drift away and that I could have done more to keep them close. I thought I was so excited for Christmas but now that is it here, meh its not so great. Even though I love love love the holidays this one seems kind of empty so far.
I really need to work on that change up there. It really bugs me that I can do that to people and just give them such a hard time for no reason and act totaly out of my character and just be a totaly bitch. I do not even do it intentionally so I really dont get it. When ever I feel ignored or shut out it just turns right away into being mad and I need to learn to just deal and calm down. I really hope just telling myself this enough to make me change because if I dont stop there could defenitley be bigger consequences.
How was your turkey day? :)