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i love autumn. i can't wait until autumn...
until the air stands still in the mornings and becomes a little more restless as the day drags on. as the beautiful, beautiful day gets closer and closer to setting... when every tree, as cliche as this is, grows a little weaker and wraps itself in color as it prepares to say goodbye to those red and orange and yellow and brown leaves. the season when it always feels a little overcast, but it never really rains. when you walk outside and you need a jacket...or a sweater...or even a thin blanket. not because its really very cold, but just because wrapping up inside of it is so wonderfully warm...and you feel like holding hands. with a friend or with someone whom you adore...with someone who's eyes are so wonderfully splashed with blues and greens that each time they glance your way, a little piece of you melts like putty into the palm of their hand... but they have no idea. that's what fall makes me think of. fall makes me think of love that knows now boundaries, only because it has yet to be admitted. fall is flirty...but not without reason. its not the sort of season where you don't flirt just because you can, its the sort of season where you flirt because... well, just because you have to. you can't help it. you can't help falling in love during fall...but whats so wonderful about it is that during the fall...you just KNOW. you know you're in love, without ever having said the words. you never have to stop rolling in the leaves long enough to whisper, "i love you." and whats more lovely about this season, is that it holds the power to make you fall in love with everyone, in every way. fall is the true season of love. forget spring with its flowers and summer with its flings, and dont think for a second that curling up with hot cocoa and a loved one on a cold winter night means love, either. because autumn is it. autumn is the season where the only thing more flirty than the way the wind weaves in an out of the wool of your sweater and leaves you completely tickled and just cold enough to be comfortable... is the way his hands feel as they're picking you up, only to toss you down again into a giant pile of crackling color. or maybe how incredibly cute he thinks you look in that stupid wool hat thats pulled down over your ears. the only thing more wonderful about autumn than the way it feels like sunset all day long...because its gray and quiet and lovely...because the air feels completely still, even though there are plenty of leaves playing hide and go seek, is how much closer everything feels...how many friends you think you'll never lose. maybe its because you've just met them, maybe its because october makes for perfect tricks and treats and brand new other halves, maybe its because november seals the deal. maybe its also because you haven't just met them...maybe its because you've spent at least five other halloweens together...five other autumns, when you ran up and down the street and took long pointless bike rides with that first other half. maybe its because you feel complete in knowing that you've met your two favorite people. maybe you think you'll never lose your friends right around the falling season, because the semester is halfway through. it didnt just start, and it's not almost ending. because of the varsity games and the same corner in the bleachers where you always sit with your best friends and yeah, sometimes, that boy whos almost too beautiful to look at. because of your own football games where you're the only girls, yet you somehow manage to make a few nice tackles...even if you were really more interested in being tackled yourself. its because the air smells cleaner and more empty. more fresh, despite the fact that the year is nearly over. autumn is more than colors and grey skies and winds that wrap you up and makes you feel at home, and never let you go... autumn is the true beauty season, the true comfort season, the true friendship season... autumn makes me happiest and makes me feel the most at home. maybe because of that one recess after a spelling test in the fifth grade, when i met my first real friend, the first person outside of my family who i ever loved (and still do). maybe because of trick or treating my freshman year and the way we tore it up and laughed for hours, having never even hung out before in our lives. maybe because of the comforting way the wind blew my hair after he nervously held my hand and kissed me on that park bench...
maybe autumn feels like home because, while spring brings birth and beauty, autumn brings everything that i've needed until this point in my life...to become me.
until the air stands still in the mornings and becomes a little more restless as the day drags on. as the beautiful, beautiful day gets closer and closer to setting... when every tree, as cliche as this is, grows a little weaker and wraps itself in color as it prepares to say goodbye to those red and orange and yellow and brown leaves. the season when it always feels a little overcast, but it never really rains. when you walk outside and you need a jacket...or a sweater...or even a thin blanket. not because its really very cold, but just because wrapping up inside of it is so wonderfully warm...and you feel like holding hands. with a friend or with someone whom you adore...with someone who's eyes are so wonderfully splashed with blues and greens that each time they glance your way, a little piece of you melts like putty into the palm of their hand... but they have no idea. that's what fall makes me think of. fall makes me think of love that knows now boundaries, only because it has yet to be admitted. fall is flirty...but not without reason. its not the sort of season where you don't flirt just because you can, its the sort of season where you flirt because... well, just because you have to. you can't help it. you can't help falling in love during fall...but whats so wonderful about it is that during the fall...you just KNOW. you know you're in love, without ever having said the words. you never have to stop rolling in the leaves long enough to whisper, "i love you." and whats more lovely about this season, is that it holds the power to make you fall in love with everyone, in every way. fall is the true season of love. forget spring with its flowers and summer with its flings, and dont think for a second that curling up with hot cocoa and a loved one on a cold winter night means love, either. because autumn is it. autumn is the season where the only thing more flirty than the way the wind weaves in an out of the wool of your sweater and leaves you completely tickled and just cold enough to be comfortable... is the way his hands feel as they're picking you up, only to toss you down again into a giant pile of crackling color. or maybe how incredibly cute he thinks you look in that stupid wool hat thats pulled down over your ears. the only thing more wonderful about autumn than the way it feels like sunset all day long...because its gray and quiet and lovely...because the air feels completely still, even though there are plenty of leaves playing hide and go seek, is how much closer everything feels...how many friends you think you'll never lose. maybe its because you've just met them, maybe its because october makes for perfect tricks and treats and brand new other halves, maybe its because november seals the deal. maybe its also because you haven't just met them...maybe its because you've spent at least five other halloweens together...five other autumns, when you ran up and down the street and took long pointless bike rides with that first other half. maybe its because you feel complete in knowing that you've met your two favorite people. maybe you think you'll never lose your friends right around the falling season, because the semester is halfway through. it didnt just start, and it's not almost ending. because of the varsity games and the same corner in the bleachers where you always sit with your best friends and yeah, sometimes, that boy whos almost too beautiful to look at. because of your own football games where you're the only girls, yet you somehow manage to make a few nice tackles...even if you were really more interested in being tackled yourself. its because the air smells cleaner and more empty. more fresh, despite the fact that the year is nearly over. autumn is more than colors and grey skies and winds that wrap you up and makes you feel at home, and never let you go... autumn is the true beauty season, the true comfort season, the true friendship season... autumn makes me happiest and makes me feel the most at home. maybe because of that one recess after a spelling test in the fifth grade, when i met my first real friend, the first person outside of my family who i ever loved (and still do). maybe because of trick or treating my freshman year and the way we tore it up and laughed for hours, having never even hung out before in our lives. maybe because of the comforting way the wind blew my hair after he nervously held my hand and kissed me on that park bench...
maybe autumn feels like home because, while spring brings birth and beauty, autumn brings everything that i've needed until this point in my life...to become me.