hmmm girls

[youraplunkin]

How do some of these guys do it? It's like even though they have no substance the girls fall like dominoes to them. Maybe the girls don't have substance either. And even though I am totaly not in a dry spell at all. I just wonder...and it seems like it is always the sXe boys who do it over the internet. Sometimes I just think if I was a complete fucking tool who had long swooping hair and wore tight shirts and acted like a metrosexual then I would be the pimpdaddy to the max. Instead I actualy have broad musical taste and think for myself. Yet these guys with there shoulder strap bags and emo band of the week get all the attention. I want attention from strangers and internet people. Haha I say all this and a girl is driving an hour to see me and hang out and we have never met in real life. It should be fun though I do believe it will not dissapate into anything. Even though I kinda don't want to be in a relationship somewhere in the back of my mind I create these great fantasies of waking up eating cereal watching T.V. with someone and being all giddy boyfriend and girlfriend. She is all into some guy from Cali who can talk her ear off. Me I can't really do that haha so I am fuked. I can almost bet she will be gorgeous and fun and all that jazz. I will like her., but someone else has her already. So I'll just have fun and pretend not to mind. Either way it should be fun. It's strange I am soo confused. Like I am the one piece of the puzzle that accidently got put in the box that should be in some other puzzle. And I know someone has all their pieces together and they need me to complete it. Yet they are trying to fit me in where I won't fit and won't look right. I am the sky blue puzzle and they are the puppy dog. But hell I am in the box so I have to fit somewhere right? So goes my love life . I think I am in the right spot but when everything comes together I'm left sitting to the side. Ahh I bitch too much. Just this week normaly I am all happy but this week has'nt been good. I think I am going to get uber drunk Saturday. I deserve to dammit. And I deserve to make out with someone hot!

Jon Burger