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Me?
I'm a happy girl. I'd probably make a happier boy. But that's okay, I work with what I have.
I like to sleep, cook, bake and sew; sometimes, I'll even clean up a bit.
I love my cat GEMINI.
He's the cutest thing, don't forget! He'll bite yer balls off though, so don't mess with him.
I'm so strange sometimes it scares me.
A lot of the time I'm too inebriated to function correctly, but somehow, I make it home okay.
I wrote a sonnet about a boy one day. This was about 5 weeks ago.
You see, this boy, he made (MAKES) me smile. Really big smiles, alot like my picture. I wish I had a picture for every time he made me smile, because, well, I could wallpaper my room in my smiles. Anyyyyway, this boy, he's special. And everyone else may not think so, but I do. And I honestly don't know why.
I wish I had the sonnet now, but I think I lost it when my computer crashed. Sometimes, the sonnet would make me smile. Sometimes it would make me cry. But it was a pretty and heartfelt sonnet. It was perfectly queer. Kinda like me.
But back to the boy, once again. Once we saw something, then I saw something after that. And that was the last time I saw that. I hope I see it again, not the first, but the second thing.
When I turn the music or radio up, I hear a song. Probably a good song. And then I think of his songs. And all I do is think think think blah blah fucking blah. Because sometimes, that's what it feels like.
Then I do some things and I'm not there for a couple of hours.
I repeat this cycle for a while until we run out or I decide not to. I decided not to today. And I might not on Sunday, just because I can. I know it wouldn't make him happy, not in the least; but for now, this is making ME happy.
It's rainy nasty buckets now. I hope he drives home alright tonight. I hope he's dry and warm right about now. I hope he doesn't catch a cold. I hope he smiled today, and I also hope, as much as I don't think he did, I hope he thought about me today.
I think I'll say a prayer tonight, a prayer for him. So if he didn't smile today, he could smile tomorrow.
Goodnight, goodnight.
<3Nikki