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i cant explain today in detail... its not worth it.
- school
- tanning
- watched dr. phil out of bordem
- ate culvers
- talked to matt and chad
- took a bath
that brings me to now.
im sad, im depressed, im lonley. I do not know what happened to the will power i had when i used ot go days without eating. I wish i was that girl again. I liked her. I am not so sure i like who i am now. I know i wish i was happy. I think a lot of these feelings come from the fact that i have an appointment to re-evaluate my eating disorder. In two weeks i have to go back to the university of chicago. They will weigh me. ask me questions. i will lie and act like i havent been starving and excersizing non stop.
i will be pure.
- school
- tanning
- watched dr. phil out of bordem
- ate culvers
- talked to matt and chad
- took a bath
that brings me to now.
im sad, im depressed, im lonley. I do not know what happened to the will power i had when i used ot go days without eating. I wish i was that girl again. I liked her. I am not so sure i like who i am now. I know i wish i was happy. I think a lot of these feelings come from the fact that i have an appointment to re-evaluate my eating disorder. In two weeks i have to go back to the university of chicago. They will weigh me. ask me questions. i will lie and act like i havent been starving and excersizing non stop.
i will be pure.