I try so fucking hard, but I can't fit your mold.
It's so nice sitting very still,
in a room where no one else can feel
the pain that breaks my heart each day, I'm not ok.
Sunlight shining through my window,
let's me know that I'm still alive
Why did I ever let you inside my heart? I'm such a fool.
Paint my face in shades of blood and grey
and take the seat right next to me
But I should've known that you were a killer.
other than that song, ive probably been living off brand new.
worst holidays ever. my family hates me, and thats the worst feeling in the world.
im broke. cant afford food, gas, christmas presents.
im depressed. im lonely.. and ive BEEN lonely, i hate myself..
i could go on, trust me, i could.. but i wont
i went to work today 15 minutes late, and crying my eyes out.
sometimes, i wish i really would just die, so that everyone would know how hurt i really am. and that maybe my family would have an ounce of feeling in them, and realize that they hurt me worse than anyone.. especially the people they talk shit about.. i think we all know who i mean
thats a strong statement, but im the most depressed person you'll ever meet
so other than i suck, my life sucks. and i hate everything.
MERRY CHRISTMAS<3<3 .