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I know what I did will just freak you out.
It's yet the simplest.. smallest thing ever that I could do.. But I did it.
I'm not sure why I'm like this.
I wouldn't be able to tell you right now why I'm so upset.
Or why I decided to do something that I know will scare you, you already give me enough attention.
It's just not enough right now.
I want more, i need more, and it's just so hard to keep waiting until you're going to be here.
I can't keep making up excuses.
But my mind keeps throwing my past at me.
I should be able to put my guard down, but I keep having these moments where I think something "he" did you might do.
Even though I'm fully aware you wont.
It's like my mind keeps playing tricks on me.
I'm just really scared.
I just love you so much, I never want to lose you.
I never want to ever have to feel the heart ache I felt last year, ever again.
It's yet the simplest.. smallest thing ever that I could do.. But I did it.
I'm not sure why I'm like this.
I wouldn't be able to tell you right now why I'm so upset.
Or why I decided to do something that I know will scare you, you already give me enough attention.
It's just not enough right now.
I want more, i need more, and it's just so hard to keep waiting until you're going to be here.
I can't keep making up excuses.
But my mind keeps throwing my past at me.
I should be able to put my guard down, but I keep having these moments where I think something "he" did you might do.
Even though I'm fully aware you wont.
It's like my mind keeps playing tricks on me.
I'm just really scared.
I just love you so much, I never want to lose you.
I never want to ever have to feel the heart ache I felt last year, ever again.