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i'm sorry everyone
i lied to you all, im not happy
im sorry that i am always lieing to everyone
& im sorry i actually open up to everyone and everything..& then i just fall right back down
this is so stupid .. just everything
i wish i could explain to someone..someone that cares
because i honsetly feel like no one REALLYYY does care enough
to listen to what i have to say, and help me
i cant tell the bad from the good anymore
i dont know if im doing a bad thing or a good thing
i just keep on making all these mistakes
& i feel like everyone is just sitting back and watching all this fall upon me
im still not doing anything for me...myself
i keep doing things for others..
i never ACTAULLY stick up for myself when i know what m hurting or just pissed off
i want to scream at someone..but i cant because i dont want them to be mad at me..
so i just let them walk all over me like they always have and they always will..
i dont think i can ever say that i have srsly stood up to someone straight in the face when they were hurting me the most and tell them how i feel and what is going on...because im guessing if they would do that they would just laugh at me right in my face
& im sorry..
i am srsly soo truley sorry...
im sorry that im boring and just plan no fun
im sorry that im not good enough for you to be my friend
im sorry i believed you
& the fact that you made me really smile for the first time in the last month or so
im sorry that you make me happy and actually make em feel alive sometimes
i just really wish i could be good enough for you
i want to know whats so bad about me??
& why cant you say the hurtful things to me face?
why cant you see me in that pain?
i just hate the lies..
tell me the truth, just do it
i lied to you all, im not happy
im sorry that i am always lieing to everyone
& im sorry i actually open up to everyone and everything..& then i just fall right back down
this is so stupid .. just everything
i wish i could explain to someone..someone that cares
because i honsetly feel like no one REALLYYY does care enough
to listen to what i have to say, and help me
i cant tell the bad from the good anymore
i dont know if im doing a bad thing or a good thing
i just keep on making all these mistakes
& i feel like everyone is just sitting back and watching all this fall upon me
im still not doing anything for me...myself
i keep doing things for others..
i never ACTAULLY stick up for myself when i know what m hurting or just pissed off
i want to scream at someone..but i cant because i dont want them to be mad at me..
so i just let them walk all over me like they always have and they always will..
i dont think i can ever say that i have srsly stood up to someone straight in the face when they were hurting me the most and tell them how i feel and what is going on...because im guessing if they would do that they would just laugh at me right in my face
& im sorry..
i am srsly soo truley sorry...
im sorry that im boring and just plan no fun
im sorry that im not good enough for you to be my friend
im sorry i believed you
& the fact that you made me really smile for the first time in the last month or so
im sorry that you make me happy and actually make em feel alive sometimes
i just really wish i could be good enough for you
i want to know whats so bad about me??
& why cant you say the hurtful things to me face?
why cant you see me in that pain?
i just hate the lies..
tell me the truth, just do it