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wow its been a while. havent updated for a little bit now i guess... since last entry, things have gotten rougher. ive been having alot of trouble in school; its weird, im usually finding myself slacking and being able to make up, but it isnt happening this year :/ so now i am struggling just to catch up from fuckin around first 5 weeks of school.
i had two homecomings? went to franklins with jenny and went to mine with lindsey. franklins was alright, unnecessary stuff coz of it, but me and her worked things out. glad we're cool now JB :) my homecoming with linds steve and shell was nothing short of awesome. i felt like 10000000 dollars the whole night, and with a pretty cute girl on my arm it was even better. definately was even crazier afterwards. im still waiting for the pics, i really want to get em backkkkk.
me and ryan have been working on original songs lately, putting out a demo very soon. you will love it if you like emo/pop/acoustic rock, trust me ;]
things with the parents have been rough, what else is new. there is so much to say about that, so im refraining...
what im thinking right now.. i need to feel needed. i want to feel wanted. ive lacked so much affection, so its hard to replace it with happiness all the time. attention always seems like my best friend, without it i feel lonely.. there are just way too many stressors in my life, i need more than one outlet/relief for them all. things just kill me sometimes if nothing seems controlable. i want to feel on top of the world, but its always a fight to keep myself above the water; if that makes sense..
i read my horoscope everyday, to see if it mentions good fortune... 'you have a bright future'... 'someone is seeking what you want'... ive taught myself not to believe it; it mentions things you always want to hear?
does anyone out there want to save me?