Just think of this and me as just a few of many things to lie around and clutter up your shelves
Ooo look, I have a journal. Heck of lame but I was bored and they're fun sometimes. So school started today and it was just really draining in general. Plus I didn't sleep much last night. School always brings complications in everything. I'm just really stressed out right now and I need a break, even though I just got back from the ranch. I'd kill to go back there. (an entry about that later). But anyway, things are rocky again I guess. This always happens though because I can't be what people want. I'm trying not to worry about it though and just live for myself for a change. I just feel like a jerk I guess. I hate how I always feel bad even if it's not my fault. I guess we need to work it out but I don't really know what there is left to say. He pretty much layed it all out there last night and made me feel like crap so I don't want to make him more upset by bringing it up again. I honestly don't know what to do. I wish this didn't turn out to be such a big deal. That's why I stay away from relationships, drama always ensues. I feel like I somehow messed up big time, again. Nice job Stacy Lee Turner. Well, I have to go get ready for my meeting so this is the end of entry number one. Hope you were mildly entertained. So sorry if you weren't. Bye bye.