The darkness or the light? 2/?
Part 1 - ( "I can’t live without you.")
“NO! Stop this.” I yelled as I tried to sooth both of them at once.
Why was she letting me move? Everybody else was frozen in place, only I was actually able to move. I could see the slight shining of her force field that trapped Alice and me with her. Esme and Carlisle looked like this was the worst kind of torture and Emmet and Rosalie looked furious.
“Please, Maria just stop this.” I looked her direct in the eyes as Alice struggled in my arms, “What do you want?” But deep down I knew, I knew why she’d come back.
“You.” She smiled, “I want you to come back with me. Of course if you say know I’d just have to get rid of your new family,” she snarled the family bit, “Surely you don’t want them dead.”
“I’ll come with you, just leave them alone.” I was practically begging.
“I’ll come back for you in a week. Don’t try any funny business or you will regret it.” She got closer to me as she giggled, “But you won’t will you?”
“No.” That was true. I knew that if it was the option of returning to the darkness of my past or having to watch my family, my Alice scream as she slowly killed them, there was no option. I would choose the darkness any day. Maria ruffled my hair as if I were a child, she knew me better than I thought. She knew that Alice was my life, my soul, my only reason for still being here and she knew she mattered more to me than anything.
As soon as she was gone Alice opened her eyes and everybody moved again.
“What happened?” She asked as if waking up from a bad dream, “Where is she?”
I stroked her hair, “She’s gone.” She looked up at me confused, her mouth pressed into a fine line.
“She wasn’t going to go unless...” Her face covered with the horror of realisation, “No, please tell me you didn’t agree.” I decided not to lie. “But you promised!” She tried to break free of my grip but she soon gave up and sobbed in my arms.
“I didn’t have a choice. She would have killed every one of you.” I kissed her hair, “I would never let that happen.”
“But you promised.” She whispered mid sob.
“I would rather break my promise than watch you die.” I knew she wasn’t just referring to the promise I had made earlier but the promise I had made when we were in Paris under the stars, when we’d both sworn we’d be together till the end of days.
“I don’t want to loose you.” She whimpered as she moved back to look at my face, “You’re the only one I’ve got...”
“I don’t want to loose you.” I stated, “You have the Cullen’s, if anything ever happened to you I’d be alone.” We both knew that, she was part of the family, I wasn’t. I was just the bonus that had come with Alice - they’d had to accept me so she’d stay, it was nether about me fitting in. Not that I minded, we all knew that the only reason I was there was Alice. Like Rosalie had once ‘informed’ me, I was never going to fit in or be part of the family.
“Why did you say yes?” Emmet growled as soon as Alice when out with Rosalie.
“Would you rather I’d let Alice die?” Why did he care? This was practically the situation they’d all wanted. An excuse to get rid of me but still keep my Alice.
“Surely there is way around this.” Carlisle sighed pacing up and down the room.
I sighed, “It’s perfectly simple. I go back with her and all you guys are safe.” Strange, I thought they would be jumping with joy, not trying to find a way around it. Why were they doing this?
“Because we care.” Edward’s voice came out of the blue, making everyone but me jump.
“Please could you get out of my head?” I snapped, frustrated he knew how alone and weak I felt.
“What’s he thinking?” Emmet asked ignoring my protests.
“Mainly rubbish.” Edward said, more to me than Emmet.
I laughed with no humour, “We both know it’s all true.” I silently challenged him to deny that.
“No it’s not.” He practically growled, “Ask anyone....”
I interrupted him, “And they’d agree with me.” I wasn’t jealous of Alice, I just whished they stopped pretending they gave a damn about me.
“Mom,” Edward sighed, “Dad, anyone tell him he’s part of the family and we do care about him.”
“Of course we do!” Esme gasped dramatically, “Why? Surely you know that.”
“See?” Edward nodded. I simply thought: words, if it weren’t for Alice would you of accepted me?
When he was silent I whispered, “See?” And it hurt more than I’d expected to have my suspicions confirmed. I was never part of this family and for some insane reason, it hurt.