I just want to scream!
I have been unemployed for 3 weeks and have been doing interviews, but no positive responses yet. My best friend Julia has been in Hawaii for the last two weeks and my son John has finally got a girlfriend, which I am happy about, but I haven't had someone to talk to and lately I have had a lot of bad health news. I have been depressed at the news and haven't even felt like going to MDRF.
My health insurance was still in effect until the end of the month, so I decided to use the time to catch up on all the physical stuff I have been neglecting for a couple of years. Now I was I was blissfully ignorant of where I stand. The doctor found shadows in each breast that they want to check again in 4-6 months, and I was told not to worry.
Bone scan shows I have advancing osteoporosis in my spine and lower back. At least now I know why I hurt, but they can't give me anything at this time for bone and muscular pain because I've had intestinal bleeding ulcers. Now I know why I can't carry groceries up my 3 flights of stairs and John complains about helping me with that or even taking down the trash for me. He just doesn't understand.
I have glaucoma in both eyes and even tho the dr gave me a rx for new glasses, he says it is too early to operate and I will have to live with more blurring of my vision for a while. I have to magnify all my hand work and crafts.
Dr wants me to come in to talk about the transvag sono, and I really don't want to know. I'm not going to do anything stupid, but sometimes I wish I could just go to sleep and not wake up. Nobody remembers that I am still here and rightfully they should be concentrating on their own lives, but sometimes I just wish someone would remember that I am here, too. My kids have their own lives now and usually people only get in touch when they need my help with something. I'm just through with it all.
My health insurance was still in effect until the end of the month, so I decided to use the time to catch up on all the physical stuff I have been neglecting for a couple of years. Now I was I was blissfully ignorant of where I stand. The doctor found shadows in each breast that they want to check again in 4-6 months, and I was told not to worry.
Bone scan shows I have advancing osteoporosis in my spine and lower back. At least now I know why I hurt, but they can't give me anything at this time for bone and muscular pain because I've had intestinal bleeding ulcers. Now I know why I can't carry groceries up my 3 flights of stairs and John complains about helping me with that or even taking down the trash for me. He just doesn't understand.
I have glaucoma in both eyes and even tho the dr gave me a rx for new glasses, he says it is too early to operate and I will have to live with more blurring of my vision for a while. I have to magnify all my hand work and crafts.
Dr wants me to come in to talk about the transvag sono, and I really don't want to know. I'm not going to do anything stupid, but sometimes I wish I could just go to sleep and not wake up. Nobody remembers that I am still here and rightfully they should be concentrating on their own lives, but sometimes I just wish someone would remember that I am here, too. My kids have their own lives now and usually people only get in touch when they need my help with something. I'm just through with it all.