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i think i might have found him- the guy who likes me just the way i am. who doesn't make me feel like i need to improve in any way. he's everything a never was. he's fit and cute and nice and so respectful. he's actually too good for me- unlike a; but he seems to like me.
all i wanted was for him to kiss me, and he did. he's not even stuck up, even though he totally should be. he's just incredible, and i find it such a miracle that he could possibly like me.
but even if there was alcohol involved, he did call me when he was supposed to. bu tnot yesterday. and he hasn't called me back yet. but i will not call him again, and i hope he calls back, because if he doesn't i'll totally wonder what is wrong with me- or what i did- or if i told too many people.
and i know he's just one guy, and there are plenty more, but he and i have something in common that not a lot of people have, and that makes him so much more appealing in my eyes. he understands me, and he won't judge me or think i'm crazy.
and i also know i've kissed a lot of boys, and i could probably just play him off as another if it doesn't work... but i don't want to. he's the only guy i want to kiss from now on. and i don't know if he kisses a lot of girls randomly, or whatever, and yes, i have, but he's not random to me. at all.
so i'm kind of worried about it. i have no idea what could have changed over the past few days... what did i do wrong?
all i know is that i want him in my life, however i can get him. he makes me feel so much better about myself, and i need that. i need that.
all i wanted was for him to kiss me, and he did. he's not even stuck up, even though he totally should be. he's just incredible, and i find it such a miracle that he could possibly like me.
but even if there was alcohol involved, he did call me when he was supposed to. bu tnot yesterday. and he hasn't called me back yet. but i will not call him again, and i hope he calls back, because if he doesn't i'll totally wonder what is wrong with me- or what i did- or if i told too many people.
and i know he's just one guy, and there are plenty more, but he and i have something in common that not a lot of people have, and that makes him so much more appealing in my eyes. he understands me, and he won't judge me or think i'm crazy.
and i also know i've kissed a lot of boys, and i could probably just play him off as another if it doesn't work... but i don't want to. he's the only guy i want to kiss from now on. and i don't know if he kisses a lot of girls randomly, or whatever, and yes, i have, but he's not random to me. at all.
so i'm kind of worried about it. i have no idea what could have changed over the past few days... what did i do wrong?
all i know is that i want him in my life, however i can get him. he makes me feel so much better about myself, and i need that. i need that.