a piece.
For is anything to be explained?
Ever? Just once perhaps? I suppose the only thing I could do in a case like this is wait, and hope that maybe it will all fall back into place. I have tried hard, to get back, the one I love. Yet, I fail at such deep lows. I wish I was strong enough, to talk to him in my despairation, and find out what is really going through his head, because there has been no other solution that has presented itself. However, I suppose that love, and solutions it self have never really presented themselves. So I guess its understandable in such a case where, for once in my life, I need and am asking for help, help does not show. I suppose that is utterly fair. You see? I suppose karma can really be true. If thats so, there is a lot coming in my direction that isn't going to be the best to look forward to. Of course, there never really is anything good to look forward to. Even when there is, it never lasts long enough to make it worth it. And even though this had not lasted long, I can feel in my heart it was truly worth it. Or was it..
Hearts can be decieving. As we all can tell. One old, dear friend had pointed that out today, although later regreted it, they mentioned the factor that maybe it wasn't the way I was seeing it. Maybe, that there was something else that I wasn't letting myself see. All questions seek meaning, while I factor out life equations. Only a few find true importance, however that means little in my mind. I am always doing wrong, so how is possible for me to believe that I am thinking right? What am I supposed to think? Oh my, this is so dreary.. I just want his presence again, even full of anger, it was better than the cold breaze he left me with. I am withstanding this torture, but no longer will my body be able to sustain this anguish. Without some other, something, I wont last.
L8er.
Ever? Just once perhaps? I suppose the only thing I could do in a case like this is wait, and hope that maybe it will all fall back into place. I have tried hard, to get back, the one I love. Yet, I fail at such deep lows. I wish I was strong enough, to talk to him in my despairation, and find out what is really going through his head, because there has been no other solution that has presented itself. However, I suppose that love, and solutions it self have never really presented themselves. So I guess its understandable in such a case where, for once in my life, I need and am asking for help, help does not show. I suppose that is utterly fair. You see? I suppose karma can really be true. If thats so, there is a lot coming in my direction that isn't going to be the best to look forward to. Of course, there never really is anything good to look forward to. Even when there is, it never lasts long enough to make it worth it. And even though this had not lasted long, I can feel in my heart it was truly worth it. Or was it..
Hearts can be decieving. As we all can tell. One old, dear friend had pointed that out today, although later regreted it, they mentioned the factor that maybe it wasn't the way I was seeing it. Maybe, that there was something else that I wasn't letting myself see. All questions seek meaning, while I factor out life equations. Only a few find true importance, however that means little in my mind. I am always doing wrong, so how is possible for me to believe that I am thinking right? What am I supposed to think? Oh my, this is so dreary.. I just want his presence again, even full of anger, it was better than the cold breaze he left me with. I am withstanding this torture, but no longer will my body be able to sustain this anguish. Without some other, something, I wont last.
L8er.