Out.
Everyone's just marching around. Pretending they know everything, pretending they know themselves. When really all they know is that they are trying to grab attention away from everyones eyes. The harder you step, the louder the noise you make. The louder you eat, the more annoyed people are with you. The more you talk about every little thing you are going to do, the more people want to shoot you in the fucking face. But the trick is.. Now theyre on your mind. And really, thats all that they want. The younger generations are getting more and more distant from all that. I dont know one of my friends who stomp around, or eat loud because they're trying to be proper. People who talk more about every little thing they do, want to be noticed more. People who take showers less, crave the attention it brings to them from smelling bad. And thats all my family really is. They are just a bunch of rejected, unhealthy pigs who don't give a fuck what they're really doing, as long as someone notices them.
People who are a little younger, still have some class. And they are usually brought up with the right skills that they should grow up with. Unlike me. I was never told to, "put your napkin on your lap. You hit her, you're grounded. No eating any candy before diner. Don't chew with your mouth open. Watch your language." We didn't even eat at the fucking table. I didn't grow up the average way. I was never taught any of that. And now I have to learn it from scratch, I have to just copy others that around me and pretend what Im doing is what Ive done all my life.
It really pisses me the fuck off to know that I even have to write this shit. But it fucking drives me insane. I need to put a camera on that no one else can see, but I know is there. I need this. Please.. someone have a more secretive camera lying around? I need help, and with out anyones help my mind is going to go right down the fucking tube. The fact that my family has NO manners, no order, or and type of discipline.. drives me fucking insane. Nothing matters to them, ever. My mom will occasionally try to grab attention the more intelligently and proper way, but shes so far gone she can't even fucking do that. I can tell its in there some where.. but doubtful anyone can ever see that until she learns how to act infront of people.
I see everyone around me, all the other families, all the other adults, teenagers, and kids all act normal. My family can't just, for one minute be normal. And I'm gunna come out straight and say it, the fact my family is so fat pisses me the fuck off. My mom, my dad, and my brothers getting there. Im definetely on the fuckin way, I mean, Look at me. I won't tell you lies, I am probably very well rounded considering my background circumstances, and my family grounds. I fucking hate it all. I fucking hate that my brother chews loud, and laugh really loud, and stomps on the floor as he walks by, and makes embaressing and annoying noises not even that are necessary, or that he gets pissed off at MY music because he doesn't necessarily agree with their voice tone, or their language, or what theyre saying, or its annoying. Like.. fuck, I dont give a fuck. Get you're own fucking life.
They are so lazy, they won't even get me a blood test to see the fuck whether Im gunna live or die, or a puffer so that I can exercise, or a bone density test to make sure I dont have anemia. They don't give a fuck, and I'm pretty sure I'm just gunna have to sit back and take it. I could have cancer.. and they wouldn't even fucking know or give a shit.
So whatever!
It's cool, right?
I can't force them to drive me to places, or get things done, or get a job, or care about me, or fix my camera, or clean out the basement so I can have somewhere to play my drums without hitting the symbol everytime I want to hit the snare cause it's so fucking compact in my room.
No, its all good.
Because thats how the "simerls" fucking way of life is.
We don't give a shit about anyone else, no one else gives a shit about us.
Its fucking great man.
I gotta tell you, not being truly cared for by your parents, fucking rocks.
The more you waste my time
The more I fall away
And if you want to push me
I'm not going to stay
Theres no need for me to listen
To all the lies you have to spew
Give me one more reason to leave
And I'll have nothing to do with you
Take my love away
And you're left with hate
Dont fuck around with my head
I don't believe in fate
When you don't have someone to talk to
Don't come running to me
I'm with you too often to care
I'm not your spare eyes to see
Don't think I'm being cruel
You've got all the power to rule
Pretending you have aspirations again?
You're no different from way back then
You think this project will fly?
Go for it, you're limits the sky
Just don't drag me in one more time
For you I have no extra dimes
Don't be surprised if theres no one at your door
All my life my heads been sore
From you and all your games
And that you should be ashamed
Of what you do
Because I'm sick of you
No more preaching
No more nag
Without this Im content
Your no more a drag.
People who are a little younger, still have some class. And they are usually brought up with the right skills that they should grow up with. Unlike me. I was never told to, "put your napkin on your lap. You hit her, you're grounded. No eating any candy before diner. Don't chew with your mouth open. Watch your language." We didn't even eat at the fucking table. I didn't grow up the average way. I was never taught any of that. And now I have to learn it from scratch, I have to just copy others that around me and pretend what Im doing is what Ive done all my life.
It really pisses me the fuck off to know that I even have to write this shit. But it fucking drives me insane. I need to put a camera on that no one else can see, but I know is there. I need this. Please.. someone have a more secretive camera lying around? I need help, and with out anyones help my mind is going to go right down the fucking tube. The fact that my family has NO manners, no order, or and type of discipline.. drives me fucking insane. Nothing matters to them, ever. My mom will occasionally try to grab attention the more intelligently and proper way, but shes so far gone she can't even fucking do that. I can tell its in there some where.. but doubtful anyone can ever see that until she learns how to act infront of people.
I see everyone around me, all the other families, all the other adults, teenagers, and kids all act normal. My family can't just, for one minute be normal. And I'm gunna come out straight and say it, the fact my family is so fat pisses me the fuck off. My mom, my dad, and my brothers getting there. Im definetely on the fuckin way, I mean, Look at me. I won't tell you lies, I am probably very well rounded considering my background circumstances, and my family grounds. I fucking hate it all. I fucking hate that my brother chews loud, and laugh really loud, and stomps on the floor as he walks by, and makes embaressing and annoying noises not even that are necessary, or that he gets pissed off at MY music because he doesn't necessarily agree with their voice tone, or their language, or what theyre saying, or its annoying. Like.. fuck, I dont give a fuck. Get you're own fucking life.
They are so lazy, they won't even get me a blood test to see the fuck whether Im gunna live or die, or a puffer so that I can exercise, or a bone density test to make sure I dont have anemia. They don't give a fuck, and I'm pretty sure I'm just gunna have to sit back and take it. I could have cancer.. and they wouldn't even fucking know or give a shit.
So whatever!
It's cool, right?
I can't force them to drive me to places, or get things done, or get a job, or care about me, or fix my camera, or clean out the basement so I can have somewhere to play my drums without hitting the symbol everytime I want to hit the snare cause it's so fucking compact in my room.
No, its all good.
Because thats how the "simerls" fucking way of life is.
We don't give a shit about anyone else, no one else gives a shit about us.
Its fucking great man.
I gotta tell you, not being truly cared for by your parents, fucking rocks.
The more you waste my time
The more I fall away
And if you want to push me
I'm not going to stay
Theres no need for me to listen
To all the lies you have to spew
Give me one more reason to leave
And I'll have nothing to do with you
Take my love away
And you're left with hate
Dont fuck around with my head
I don't believe in fate
When you don't have someone to talk to
Don't come running to me
I'm with you too often to care
I'm not your spare eyes to see
Don't think I'm being cruel
You've got all the power to rule
Pretending you have aspirations again?
You're no different from way back then
You think this project will fly?
Go for it, you're limits the sky
Just don't drag me in one more time
For you I have no extra dimes
Don't be surprised if theres no one at your door
All my life my heads been sore
From you and all your games
And that you should be ashamed
Of what you do
Because I'm sick of you
No more preaching
No more nag
Without this Im content
Your no more a drag.