these people aren't your friends_ inhaling thrills through twenty dollar bills
and I know that it's not a party if it happens every
wierd day. it sucked sofuckingmuch. i almost died. literally. i might have to see a doctor again. jimmy helped alot <3. we're renting the movie = Day After Tomorrow couldn't ask for more. but my days would be so much better if this certain person would just stop breathing, disappear for awhile, relocate, something. it's unavoidable, guess i should just make the best of it. i'll have to resort to ignorance. alex is sad. because of me. he tells me i break his heart everyday. there's nothing i can do right now. he wants to see me before he goes to the navy. but he says that he'll cry because he can't kiss me. he wants to wait for me. and says he won't be with anyone else but me. how sad when that is what your life has been reduced to. i really don't want him isolated, in pain. but he won't have it any other way. pretending there's glamour and candelabrum when you're drinking by candelight.