Stand Your Ground
Well I know I said I would update about the family thing which I will at the end of the weekend but there are so many things on my mind right now that I need to let go.
what the fuck is going with us? Im so fucked in the head. And I know soon im gonna have to be firm and put my foot down and stop seeing you but Im so fucking in love with you I cant resist. It makes me sick how much I care for you. Im gonna have to be strict and just walk away and discontinue whatever we have going on. I dont know or think I can do it. But I really do have to because everyday the seams that hold me together unweave and make me a living miss. I may smile and be happy on the outside but on the inside Im a fucking train wreck. I miss you so fucking much I just get goosebumps at the thought. I want to be a part of your life but it really doesnt seem like you want me there and please dont pity me. I dont want to stick around because you feel bad. This would be so much easier if you would tell me how you feel. When I try to discuss this with you I just get invalid answers. Dont hold anything back. I want to know everything. If you love me as much as you do then please let me in. Because you say you never want to hurt me but right now your fucking killing me.
Im sorry this may not make any sense but Im just so confused......
what the fuck is going with us? Im so fucked in the head. And I know soon im gonna have to be firm and put my foot down and stop seeing you but Im so fucking in love with you I cant resist. It makes me sick how much I care for you. Im gonna have to be strict and just walk away and discontinue whatever we have going on. I dont know or think I can do it. But I really do have to because everyday the seams that hold me together unweave and make me a living miss. I may smile and be happy on the outside but on the inside Im a fucking train wreck. I miss you so fucking much I just get goosebumps at the thought. I want to be a part of your life but it really doesnt seem like you want me there and please dont pity me. I dont want to stick around because you feel bad. This would be so much easier if you would tell me how you feel. When I try to discuss this with you I just get invalid answers. Dont hold anything back. I want to know everything. If you love me as much as you do then please let me in. Because you say you never want to hurt me but right now your fucking killing me.
Im sorry this may not make any sense but Im just so confused......