freezing filanges.
every time i eat, i feel flooded with nausea.
like, lay-down-and-worry-about-it ill.
pretty effective diet.
i'm always first and foremost concerned that i'll turn into my mother.
or her mother.
constant, gnawing sickness.
or agoraphobia.
nothing is going how i want it to, nothing fits, nothing clicks, not one thing feels right. i'm ready to just pick it all up and drag it elsewhere.
i think what i really need is a looooong talk.
4am long.
like, lay-down-and-worry-about-it ill.
pretty effective diet.
i'm always first and foremost concerned that i'll turn into my mother.
or her mother.
constant, gnawing sickness.
or agoraphobia.
nothing is going how i want it to, nothing fits, nothing clicks, not one thing feels right. i'm ready to just pick it all up and drag it elsewhere.
i think what i really need is a looooong talk.
4am long.