this really fucking blows.
i've become dependant on sleeping pills. this isn't spelling good things for my future years. ugh. this suuuuuuuuuckkkkks. why can't i just sleep like a normal human fucking being.
also, i wish i had something or someone to REALLY make me want to stop smoking. i realize it's killing me, and i smell bad all the time, and i look like an idiot, and i waste money. but fuck, doing things for myself hasn't ever really been a strong trait for me. i'm not self motivated enough to ever do anything simply for my own good. i need a reeeeeeaassssssoooonnnnn. i wish insurance covered prescription stop smoking stuff. maybe i'll meet a rad girl who will politely get me to stop, without being a bitch about it. doubtful though.
also, i wish i had something or someone to REALLY make me want to stop smoking. i realize it's killing me, and i smell bad all the time, and i look like an idiot, and i waste money. but fuck, doing things for myself hasn't ever really been a strong trait for me. i'm not self motivated enough to ever do anything simply for my own good. i need a reeeeeeaassssssoooonnnnn. i wish insurance covered prescription stop smoking stuff. maybe i'll meet a rad girl who will politely get me to stop, without being a bitch about it. doubtful though.