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Just about 8 more weeks I keep telling myself. Its not like I didn't know coming back to Georgia would be reliving some of the loneliest and hardest times I'd ever known, but I did it to save the rents some money, and to help them out this summer.
I've got new puppies, a dying great uncle and everyday a sink full of dishes and laundry to take care of. I knew the first part when I decided to come down, but I really didn't realize the extent of the last 3 until I got here.
I just got a job workin as a nurse tech at the NICU at the hospital I start on Monday. Summer school has been kickin my butt. I have one of the hardest teachers I've ever faced. So critical, singles me out sometimes. I'm trying real hard but she's just not very nice sometimes.
I'm just so incredibly lonely here. No one to talk to, no friends to go out with at night or during the day. School is no help, its just a hassle, its not a sociable environment because everyone just wants to get the hell outta there and back to their own lives. Work is filled with middle age ladies. I'm not really a phone person, I know I can call up and talk to anyone of my great friends whenever I damn well please..But I want them in front of me. I don't really get on aim or myspace anymore unless its to reply to a comment. It just makes me miss my friends more. Which reminds me, I gotta mail out some birthday presents and grad gifts to some awesome friends, but I just don't have any money right now. Hopefully with the job and all..ah! Quit your belly achin nads...Maybe I've just reached the end of my rope here.
But I keep tellin myself I can sacrifice a few more months of happiness to take care of adult responsibilties and do endless chores for a couple more months for 2 parentals who have helped get me through school and take care of my basic needs.
I just get so god damn lonely, always alone and all. Sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. So I immerse myself in pretty much any movie or show thats gay-themed. South of Nowhere. thats my fave right now..
At least this summer I came out to two important people that are close to me, even though we speak only a few times or less a year. It doesn't really get any easier everytime but at least they were cool with it.
I wish my parents would be. They shoulda been the first people I went to, but instead they're gonna be the last to know, if at all.
"Sometimes the people you know the least are the ones you need the most"
I've got new puppies, a dying great uncle and everyday a sink full of dishes and laundry to take care of. I knew the first part when I decided to come down, but I really didn't realize the extent of the last 3 until I got here.
I just got a job workin as a nurse tech at the NICU at the hospital I start on Monday. Summer school has been kickin my butt. I have one of the hardest teachers I've ever faced. So critical, singles me out sometimes. I'm trying real hard but she's just not very nice sometimes.
I'm just so incredibly lonely here. No one to talk to, no friends to go out with at night or during the day. School is no help, its just a hassle, its not a sociable environment because everyone just wants to get the hell outta there and back to their own lives. Work is filled with middle age ladies. I'm not really a phone person, I know I can call up and talk to anyone of my great friends whenever I damn well please..But I want them in front of me. I don't really get on aim or myspace anymore unless its to reply to a comment. It just makes me miss my friends more. Which reminds me, I gotta mail out some birthday presents and grad gifts to some awesome friends, but I just don't have any money right now. Hopefully with the job and all..ah! Quit your belly achin nads...Maybe I've just reached the end of my rope here.
But I keep tellin myself I can sacrifice a few more months of happiness to take care of adult responsibilties and do endless chores for a couple more months for 2 parentals who have helped get me through school and take care of my basic needs.
I just get so god damn lonely, always alone and all. Sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. So I immerse myself in pretty much any movie or show thats gay-themed. South of Nowhere. thats my fave right now..
At least this summer I came out to two important people that are close to me, even though we speak only a few times or less a year. It doesn't really get any easier everytime but at least they were cool with it.
I wish my parents would be. They shoulda been the first people I went to, but instead they're gonna be the last to know, if at all.
"Sometimes the people you know the least are the ones you need the most"