Aug 08, 2004 17:24
I feel like I'm going to throw up... do you ever just get sick to your stomach when people question your intentions... and even worse, when you can look back on it and see exactly why they question your intentions. Not that your intentions were necessarily bad, but because looking back on what you have said and done and now looking forward what you are doing just adds up a little funny?
I need to pull away. It seems like everywhere I turn these days I'm just going to cause trouble. I need to get back to my roots. I need to do more stuff for me.
My lump in my throat is back... but I think this time it really is more like I'm just going to cry.