Title: Happy birthday hyung(s)
Pairings: YunJae, ninja!MinSu,/YooMinSu
Genre: angst, romance
Rating: PG-13
Length: one-shot
WARNING: UN-BETAED!!!!
Summary: ChangMin did all he could to arrange an unforgettable birthday to his dearest hyung - YunHo.
No doubt, that his hyung will remember this "surprise" for a long, long time.
A/N: Fic dedicated to YunHo's birthday. And a belayed dedication to JJ's b-day.
Happy Birthday Hung(s)
어떻게 너를 잊을까
잊으려고 애를 써볼까
다시 돌아갈 순 없을까
여전히 널 사랑하기 때문에
꿈에서라도 믿기 싫은 이야기
(How can I forget you?
Should I put an effort to try and forget you?
will we ever be able to go back to what we ha
Even when I dream, I don’t want to believe those words.
Because I love you.)
[TVXQ/HoMin - How can I?]
-Where the hell are you taking me? - YunHo frowned and kept following his tall dongsaeng in to a fancy hotel lobby, then up the stairs, though there were plenty of free elevators, and down the hall, un till they stopped in front of room number 169.
-Will you please explain to me, what’s going on? - he finally decided to ask some thing straight and stop trusting his dongsaeng for a moment. Just to be sure.
- Oh ‘comon hyung! You will definitely like this! - ChangMin smiled and unlocked the doors.
- I doubt that. I rarely like things that I don’t know. - YunHo continued to frown and refused to go in the room.
- Please, don’t be like this! It was pretty hard to settle something like this, so show some more cooperative. - maknae smiled.
- Not that I don’t trust you or your good intents, but this seems quite fishy to me.-
YunHo crossed his arms on his chest and continued to stare at the youngest male.
- I swear, you will like this! Consider this as a birthday gift! - he said and turned toward the room, where clearly two persons were talking.
YunHo sighted and lowered his hands.
- Fine. It seem like you put in a n effort in what ever that is.- he forced out a small smile and followed the tall maknae in to the room.
His whole body almost froze, his eyes went big and heart started to bump against his chest even faster.
- Happy Birthday hyung! - ChangMin cheered along with YooChun and JunSu.
- What… I … - YunHo just stood like a statue in the middle of the room and tried to make a proper sentence, but he didn’t manage to get more then few words over his lips.
So this was why ChangMin’s phone bill during last month was twice as big as usually. So this was why those brats in SHINee covered up Min when ever he went somewhere. So this is why EunHyuk run around like crazy searching for pen just earlier today - just to write a note.
They all knew about this.
- I told you, that you will like this. - ChangMin smiled and gently pushed JunSu forward.
The shorter male stumbled a little, but then took those few steps closer to his leader-ssi and locked him in his warm embrace.
Another pair of arms settled around YunHo’s waist, as YooChun came closer and joined the hug.
A tall figure came closer and squeezed them all even more.
- You can’t even imagine how hard it was to settle this. - ChangMin said with relief in his voice.
- I think, he’s still unable to speak. - JunSu smiled his sun-like smile as he pulled away from YunHo’s chest and looked at his hyung.
- You look better in real life then in photos. Still as handsome as ever. - he smiled and laughed slightly, adjusting few strands of hair on YunHo’s head.
- YooChun? - ChangMin removed his hand from YunHo’s and JunSu’s shoulders and went to YunHo’s other side, where YooChun was still hiding his face in leaders shoulder.
YunHo turned his head toward YooChun.
- Chun… Chunnie? - he whispered, making other to rise his head.
- Don’t you dare to laugh at me! I’m the emotional one! It’s my job to cry.- YooChun wiped away few tears from his cheeks and smiled at YunHo, who still looked more then stunned.
He finally snapped out and glanced around the room.
- Where’s JaeJoong? - he asked quietly.
- Well… He’s here…- JunSu stammered and handed a napkin to YooChun.
- Why I don’t see him? -
- He’s in next room… quite drunk. - ChangMin said with only a brief moment of hesitation.
- Drunk?- YunHo’s eyes went wide.
- Well, he was “celebrating:” your birthday already. Drinking soju or beer… or both. - YooChun continued.
- You can go to him... if you want. - ChangMin placed his hand on hyungs shoulder.
YunHo didn’t say anything.
He just head straight to the next room and yet again froze in the middle of the room.
JaeJoong was lying under the covers, only black mop of hair peaking out from them.
His unsteady breathing filled the room. His body twitched once in a while.
He must have been dreaming something.
The door behind YunHo closed and he heard how the lock clicks.
- We are sorry hyung, but you need to talk to JaeJoong. - Min said clearly locking the door one more time.
- He just needs to sleep a little and he will be sober. Just wait. - YooChun continued.
- So, you needed to get him drunk, just so he would talk to me… -YunHo sighted, resting his forehead against the door.
- Now you are twisting the facts. He didn’t even know about this. This would have been a late birthday gift to him too. And he was drunk obviously not because of this, because he didn’t even know about this and…- someone shut ChangMin up, as the maknae started to babble nonsense again.
-We will go out for some time. So… Please, talk to him when he wakes up and… don’t ruin the room.- YooChun said with a small smile in his voice.
After less then a minute front door opened and closed.
YunHo sighted and sat in to the armchair in the nearest corner to the door.
His gaze locked on sleeping figure and he felt how his heart starts to ache even more.
It was hard enough without JaeJoong by his side - without his silly jokes and weird actions, without those sweet little things he did. Sometimes just fixing YunHo’s collar could brighten up his day.
It was hard to “take care” of ChangMin. Yes, he was a grown man, but he still needed the same love he needed back when they just started, back when they went all those hardships and pain. He could never think that one day he will have to give him enough love to replace 3 other people too.
It was hard not knowing where the person he cares about so much is right now, what is he doing, is he happy, does he have everything he needs.
But now it was even harder.
He was right here, right in front of his eyes, just a meter away.
But after those few hours, he will be gone again. He will be in the other side of the town, he will continue his new life, and YunHo will have to continue to do everything too keep up with the name, with brand “TVXQ”. He will have to keep up and rebuilt the ruins that left after the loud “goodbye”.
YunHo swallowed back his tears and lied his head back on the head post, closing his eyes, listening to JaeJoong’s breathing, which steadied after a moment, as if JaeJoong would feel someone’s presence.
He kept his eyes closed when someone stood up from the bed and light footsteps stopped in front of the chair he was “sleeping” in.
He kept his eyes close when someone pulled the doorknob, when footsteps went to the other side of the room and another door opened and closed.
With effort he kept his eyes shut when he heard the shower running, when he heard how the door opens and closes again.
- I know you’re not sleeping. When you sleep, while you are sitting, your mouth is open and your eyes are half shut. - JaeJoong said quietly.
His voice sounded distant, even cold a little and YunHo couldn’t blame him.
He opened his eyes and straightened up.
JaeJoong was sitting in middle of the bed, hugging his knees and resting his chin on them. The white hotel robe contrasted with his pitch black hair yet somehow matched with his pale skin.
- Whose idea was this? - he continued silently, obviously holding something back.
He probably wanted to scream at YunHo what kind of utter bastard he was, how he even dared to show his face here, how much he hated YunHo for the wrong choices he made.
And YunHo couldn’t blame him.
He was the leader… the leader who couldn’t hold his group… his family together.
- I guess… ChangMin’s- YunHo replied with a small sight.
- So, he still likes to plot silly things. - Jae said with a smile. So he still cared about ChangMin. And that was pretty reasonable. Min didn’t do anything wrong.
- Yes. That’s one of his hobbies. - YunHo tried to fake a smile, but it fated as fast as it appeared on his face.
- Is he eating well? - Jae started at the opposite wall, still hugging his knees.
- You know ChangMin. Sure he is. I bet, he’s eating right now too…-
“Probably of JunSu’s torso or what ever.”
YunHo kept the last remark to himself.
- I guess so.- JaeJoong sighted and now rested his forehead on his knees.
Their conversation was over.
Deep silence acceded in the room and YunHo used all self control he had, which wasn’t a lot - he always lost his self control when JaeJoong was near, to make himself sit in that chair and not move closer to Jae, not to try touching him, remembering his scent once again.
He inhaled deeply just to get few words over his lips.
- I am sorry. - he said quietly, voice almost breaking.
JaeJoong raise his head and looked at YunHo, whose gaze was now lowered on the floor, eyes filled with sadness and regret.
- I am sorry for not being brave enough to stand against the one who started this. - YunHo continued, hands gripping in hand posts.
- I guess, I should have had done something, at least speak up more convincingly… Maybe that was the time to let out my temper and finally yell at that person. - he swallowed loudly, closed his eyes for a moment and took a deep breath again.
- Though, you can’t blame him either, right? That wasn’t his job to keep us together… it is…was... my job…- he went silent for a second.
The knob of tears grew larger in his throat, but this probably was the only chance to talk to JaeJoong, to tell everything.
- I… I am sorry for not trying… Though I tried. I tried to contact you; I really did, though I don’t have any evidence. I tried to reply to your messages and calls. I am not here to blame anyone, except myself, yet it was harder then it may sound.- he felt how he starts to mess up his own thoughts and mumble something illogical, mixing stuff together.
- And… I’m sorry for not being strong enough. - he finally let go of the hand post and wiped away that disobedient tear that trickled over his cheek.
- It may look that I’m ok, when I smile to cameras, when I laugh… But... If only you could believe how my heart breaks every time. - YunHo covered his eyes with his palm and tried to calm down.
He just wanted to explain, to find a tiny beam of hope, a chance that JaeJoong doesn’t hate him completely, that maybe they still have a chance, if not now then maybe in future. Yet only big tears, which he held back for so long, rolled down his cheeks.
Footsteps stopped in front of the chair. Two soft hands cupped YunHo’s cheeks, wiping away tears.
- You’re brave enough, to stay and fight a fight you can’t win. - a kiss landed on top of YunHo’s head.
- You’re strong enough for saying this. - JaeJoong finally removed the hand that was still covering YunHo’s eyes.
Other didn’t say a word, just gazed at JaeJoong.
- I’m sorry that I left you, that I made you feel guilty. I guess I deserve the hate. - JaeJoong smiled a bittersweet smile and tried to take a step back.
- Wait…- YunHo grabbed others’ wrist and stood up.
-You think that I hate you? - YunHo looked at Jae, eyes still glistering from tears.
- Not only you. I bet ChangMin does to. And even YooChun and JunSu, because I dragged them with me.- the same sad, bittersweet smile flashed on JaeJoong’s face, until YunHo’s arms wrapped around him in the same, warm and safe embrace, that always took away all worries.
- No one hates you. - YunHo whispered placing gentle kisses on others hair.
- We all love you. I love you. - he continued tightening his grip a little.
- Are you lying to me now? - Jae murmured against YunHo’s shoulder.
- No. I am not. I’ll never lie to you. - leader took a deep breath of others relaxing scent, sitting back in the chair and pulling JaeJoong in his lap, as he felt how his knees start to get weak from others presence.
- How much time do we have? - JaeJoong whispered, resting his head on YunHo’s shoulder, nuzzling the curve of others’ neck, playing with others’ fingers.
- I don’t know. ChangMin never said that. - YunHo sighted a little, lazily watching, as his fingers tangled with JaeJoong’s, so perfectly it almost made his heart burst from pain.
- Then we should use the time we have. - Jae settled in others’ lap, placing his knees on both sides of YunHo’s tights.
- Happy Birthday YunHo.- he captured YunHo’s lips in a soft kiss.
With no rush, sensing every moment as the last one, they melted in to each others embrace, tasted each others lips once again, re-discovered those special place son their bodies, like the very first time, when they were still young, when they were insecure about so many things, except their love.
With no rush they sent each other to 7th heaven, filling the air with moans, heavy breathing and quiet “I love you” once in a while.
This was one of the times when they wanted this moment to last for ever, so its end would never come. They juts wanted to be in each others arms forever.
*-*-*-*-*
- I wonder why it is so quiet there…- JunSu opened the front door of the room and stepped in.
With no lies, they all hoped to hear if not moans and screams for more, then at least fight and sound of breaking expensive hotel furniture.
ChangMin passed by JunSu and quietly unlocked the bedroom door, peaked in and smiled the widest smile he ever could.
- What is it? Are they both dead? - YooChun stumbled in, his ass still sore from probably one of the best “quick reunions” ever.
Both he and JunSu quietly peaked in the room.
The room smelled like sex, and it already was a good sign, yet the fact that YunHo and JaeJoong was still cuddled together, so close it was hard to tell where one ended and other started, and they were not frowning one either side of the bed, made the three youngest one hearts melt a little.
- How much time do they have? - JunSu turned to ChangMin.
- Till around 9PM. We have a curfew. - he sighted and sat on the couch.
- Should we tell them, that they have time for round two? - YooChun finally closed the door quietly and sat down with a hiss.
- I think, they would prefer if we don’t disturb them.- Su smiled and cuddled next to YooChun.
All three of them just smiled and cuddled closer to each other, just like the old days, just like when they were together as it seemed then - forever…