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so all day yesterday i wasnt in a good mood. me and Judy left a situation unsolved thursday. we finaly got a moment to talk about it last night. and things are better now. we talked about soe other things and i told her to get back to the basics of life to help her wit things. (lots of stress and stuff) and i brought up ants. in BCT i would go out and lay on the ground and look at the ants. they are perfect creaturs. they have no leader, but tey work as a team, when one is strugling, thay all stop what they are doing and help that one out... that to me is amazing. they are not greedy, and everyone s equaly important to the team.
we got into that a little deaper. but i got to thinking that i sould listen to my own advice. i give it out so much, but i never apply it to myself. not nearly as much as i should. so i prayed a long time last night. i was up untill like 11 i think. just praying. thanked God for everything, including judy. i also forgave mike last night. as uc as i would love to hurt him... i know it is not the rigt thing to do. so i handed it over to God. i know he dosent want to let go of her. but i wont hold that against him. but yea. i know i dont need to hurt him, that would be wrong, and it would make God look bad, the Army look bad, my unit look bad, and finaly make me look bad.
notice the ored that i said those. "that would be wrong, and it would make God look bad, the Army look bad, my unit look bad, and finaly make me look bad." that is ow i dessided to rank things in my life. God, Army, unit, me and friends.
anyways it's 6:13AM ive bin up sence 5:30AM didnt sleep to good. i should still be in bed. but i have drill. there we go again... the 7 army values. number 2 duty. that includes waking up early to do what i comited myself to do. you know what? ilike the 7 Army values thing. not just for the Army. civilian life too. i mean think about it. Loyalty, Duty, Respect, Selfless service, honor, integrity, personal courage. we ALL need those. well i need to finish getting ready. so i better end this.
i will try to update more offten now sence i have more time.
we got into that a little deaper. but i got to thinking that i sould listen to my own advice. i give it out so much, but i never apply it to myself. not nearly as much as i should. so i prayed a long time last night. i was up untill like 11 i think. just praying. thanked God for everything, including judy. i also forgave mike last night. as uc as i would love to hurt him... i know it is not the rigt thing to do. so i handed it over to God. i know he dosent want to let go of her. but i wont hold that against him. but yea. i know i dont need to hurt him, that would be wrong, and it would make God look bad, the Army look bad, my unit look bad, and finaly make me look bad.
notice the ored that i said those. "that would be wrong, and it would make God look bad, the Army look bad, my unit look bad, and finaly make me look bad." that is ow i dessided to rank things in my life. God, Army, unit, me and friends.
anyways it's 6:13AM ive bin up sence 5:30AM didnt sleep to good. i should still be in bed. but i have drill. there we go again... the 7 army values. number 2 duty. that includes waking up early to do what i comited myself to do. you know what? ilike the 7 Army values thing. not just for the Army. civilian life too. i mean think about it. Loyalty, Duty, Respect, Selfless service, honor, integrity, personal courage. we ALL need those. well i need to finish getting ready. so i better end this.
i will try to update more offten now sence i have more time.