What losing all faith in ever trul;y being loved by a man is...

[youngin04]

so yeah drama again...im sorry yall but i gotta let it all out i feel two completly different feelings...and mikes computer is in the back of my moms car so maybe he wont be able to read this and use it to his advantage which he does alot...hes a creep...so yesterday...his mom called and asked for him and i said can she call back cuz he is tryin to put the baby to sleep and she said some rude stuff when i was callin his name...so i got pissed because i speak to her with respect i expect the same in return but she obviously doesnt think so...so n e ways i was sayin that is pissed me off and he got mad and called out "stupid muthafuckers" and walked out the door...so when he learns to respect me he can see the boys...which is killin me...but i gotta do somthin to put my foot down and let him know im not playin...plus they dont have n e kind of fun at his house no jumpy things or walkers they cant get down on the floor cuz its dirty...im like on the verge of crying because i hate when we fight and i am going to miss him and im on the verge of running him over with a car...he is sooo fuckin moody and just like his mom...if he doesnt get
from under her wing no one will ever want him...he is toooooo much of a mamas boy she controls his life...i dont know n e more...and im havin this assholes baby and he must not care because he still continues to put my through stress and shit...and when we are cool and shit its like i gotta do everything to make him happy
he must think the whole relationship is to make him happy and dedicated to him and shit....well n e ways ....im not dating for a long long time im going to go to school and do my thing....well babies cryin so i gotta go get em..... they are soo big and cute now....

Love Jess