Sad and Lonely

[younghova]

So I am at work and I am feeling really sad.

My sister put up pictures of my mother on her myspace and it almost drove me to tears.
The real reason why is that I can hardly remember some of those times.
I feel ashamed like I should have every memory vivid in my mind.
Her smile still lights up my life and I miss the days when I got to see her.
The memory and the pain still there.
Remember back in 10th grade after school when I ran home after having a good day.
All the lights were off
there was no noise.
Thats the day that it really hit me.
Thats the day I knew she would never come back.
I felt so alone that day
and that spot that was lonely has never came back.
I have much love for everyone out there who has filled me with love
and has always been there to help me through the good and the bad.
Even though I still have that whole in my heart
everyone has made sure my heart is filled with love.

I still miss my mommy
and I forever will.

Love you mommy,
you will always be a saint to me.

P.S.  I'm including a picture for all those who do not know what my mother looked like.
It helps me to look so I can remember as well.