Moved On
Okay so not everything worked out between me and Jon like we had hoped in fact I think what scared me off is that he was planning to propose to me and I promised myself that i wouldn't make the same mistake i did like when i was with ricky. I've moved on now and I'm with Troy Greenwood (he's one of the boys I met up in Oxford) Troy means alot to me but the thing is is that I'm afraid of getting hurt again or hurting someone else that's why i don't stay in relationships that long. It's hard to give it a chance because it's hard to trust any guy that comes ito my life, only because I trusted ricky and he broke that trust. See, my mom doesn't understand the reason but she will soon enough. Nor does she understand what pain i go through, because i never tell her. It's easier to understand than to accept it. But then again to some it's easier to accept than it is to understand. But soon all those who know me will know sure enough.