there's a little give and take...

[youngdevilry]

i'm trying to update this as randomly as possible, because it's a pain in the ass to do so regularly, but i still like to say stuff in here sometimes. i guess i even still write in here because nobody really reads it...at least no one that i'm aware of. i've been strangely nostalgic lately...missing old friends, old times, old places, etc. so it's kind of strange that almost every week, i make at least one new connection with an old friend. it's almost like i'm subconsciously making it happen somehow...and i love it. but anyways...i'm super anxious to get to illinois for so many reasons...mainly because i miss feeling safe and i miss being in my comfort zone. also, i can't wait to be with timmy as well. i just miss simplicity overall, and it's nearly impossible to have that out here in california. there really isn't much for me to say in here, i guess. i'm still alive...sometimes i wonder why, but for those who have no idea what i'm up to, yeah, i'm still alive and stuff. i guess that's all i have to say. i hope all is well with everyone...

love,
neil.