Dec 05, 2005 09:22
In an effort to maintain with her a voice of...reason, that is unbiased and objective, feelings, thoughts & emotions have been suppressed. And now I am unsure as to whether or not i regret taking such an approach, whether or not it has ultimately proven to serve as the best choice. You find yourself constantly in a position where you are the conservative Jiminy Cricket for our aspiring Pinnochio, and you're always looking for the same thing in the same person...yet consistantly never finding it. Maybe bits and pieces and fractions, but never the whole, and you've come to the place where you won't settle anymore. She's become like the one's who came for the peace, the relaxtion, the easy going way of life, pretending it's what they want all the time, but it's never the case. Your feet always take you to where your heart is...at the bottom of a bottle, or the inside of a rubber... It's hard to chase a heart that's never loved, because it's only pattern is to not have one.
and i don't know what it is