i'm here, she's gone
So it's 5:20 and I've been in brandon for about an hour, only to find out that in 40 minutes my mom is leaving for Mississippi, for the next 4 days, and that I won't get to see her. She's in the shower now and they're heading to Orlando so that she can fly out at 9 a.m. I'm worried by the timing of this visit. It just feels odd that Julian and I decided to leave a day early, not knowing that my mom would be leaving precisely two hours after we'd arrive at this dark hour of the morning. I'm worried that she's going to Mississippi to burry a friend of the family, and just how awkward this all feels right now. I miss my mother and wanted to spend time with her this weekend. We'd made plans to do so many things together since I would be home for 4 days, for the first time since I left. But all will be well eventually. Yet right now, a weird feeling is coming over me. I feel the urge to say goodbye to my mother... I mean I know alot of this feeling stems from the fact that she is going to mississippi for a funeral, but still, it just feels all little odd right now. But I'm distracted none the less, knowing that Britt is here, in the same town... and not 300 miles away. My mind is running everywhere at once just processing the idea of me only being a 10 minute drive away from here at this very moment...so lemme go get som sleep so I don't look as bad as I feel in the morning...