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[youngandmislead]

Im so sad. the rain kind of suits my mood.
I feel like im not done up here...i feel like i just got here. I guess its hard because i havent felt that during summers before as intensly ... i suppose its just because last summer was so amazing and we were all always up to something.
This summer was a bit more planned and leisurely.
I feel like i didnt get to see anyone that much which is wicked frustrating.
Unlike any summer before...i think i may actually cry.
This summer was really burdened with a lot of...crap.
I mean all of it in the end was for the best...it all needed to happen but it sucks.
I feel like spiritually speaking if youre looking from the outside im in a way better place than i was last year...at least im too the point where i want to want jesus but last year i remember being happier more but maybe i wasnt truely happy. i dont even freaking know anymore...I just dont want to go home to west palm beach. Im so sick of it.
i need to get out of there after i graduate. honestly.
anyway i get home at around 5 tomorrow.
cya then.