falling bombs are her shooting stars

[young_heart]

give up.

fight.

eyes burning.
from the tears swelling up inside my
depth

eyes burn from the pot burning

always burning

when there's nothing left to burn, you have to set yoursel.f on fire

so much noise leaves me deaf with silence

his other love isn't something
i haven't been informed of

but he wants me

he needs me

they all say so

truth is i don't even give a shit

he's pressing me

guiding me with his hand on the small of my back
leading me to
a blanket
the perfect spot

to see the bursts of color overtake the sky

fancymeup
dress nice
letstakeabreak
smoke some weed in the back of the
country club

you are a
country club

my life wants to fuck up the country club
never come back

your hand touches mine
then
someone mentions his name
and
my eyes tear up for a different
reason

we're back at square one.

the yelling.
jealousy overtakes you.
rage.
my head pounding i
give up.

fight.

i want to lay next to you
i just don't want to be with you

i am never with you
touch me pull me tug at my parts

i'm the doll

with the pretty dress
perfect skin
willing body

but
my mind is used up
and my heart is rusty

i just need someone to love
the way you love me

i was never ok with this
.
i just need to forget

i need a reason to

not feel
what
damage this
self.caged
bird
has inflicted
upon itself

i do this to myself

help me stop using other people
to cover my own willingness to be used

i wish you made me happy

i wish you were happy

i wishsigh my head
would stop hurting

i fell into a burning ring of fire

a circle of stars.