take this as you will

[young_heart]

because i know you will.

please tell me this isn't how you feel.
but its how i feel.
and its now the burning from my heart to my outerchesttothetopofmythroat

i didn't bargin for this.

no no sir.
not what i signed up for.

this fucking waste of a human being
hiding in my every move

in my every thought
but thankfully
i chose not to think these days

.
out of hundreds and thousands of stars
i see you shining like the sun.

.
i thinkyou're the brightest one.

.
i think i might be playing mind games with people again
i tried to stop myself this time.
thankfully.

everytime i hear your voice.
it makes me know
everytime i remember.
i think.
i can't let her have you back.
you're too good for that
maybe not good enough for me
but too good for that

california here we come.
right back were we started from.
.
also today i:
-lost my credit card (wait that was yesterday)
-got a bladder infection
-said i'd be there and i wasn't
-let you down again

i guess you'll think harder next time.
before making a 200 dollar bet that i would marry you.
with my best friend. sheesh.

i sort of always like taken boys.
two currently.
but i get my way.

you think i got my way.

i want to see the movies of my dreams.

hope this all turns out to be better than i ever thought possible.