Accomplishment & Very fatigued
SO,
I have to keep this brief, primarliy because I am exhasted as fuck!
I have had an amazing time here in Florida for the past three weeks. Saling has been one of the most challenging undertakings I have been through in a long time. Mainly because it's like learing how to walk when your a child. It IS a very different world living on the ocean (from my new found experience of a sail boat) and you have to relearn how to walk, breath, eat, sleep and overall opperate...But although it has been challenging, it has been VERY rewarding:) As I have said before, growth is a journey, not a destination. It must be continued for the rest of you life.
I look back on the last four years of my life and feel full, content, gratitude, pride, accomplishment, determination and clairity and...I think of the quote "from time to time when must attempt things that are beyond our capacity." I can say that I have spent the last four years of my life almost everyday doing just that; and as I look back at the rest of my life before that I was doing this. Before ever I had become aware of it accutely in myself.
--- I went back to Mission:Wolf on July 15th and stayed there for a month and a half. Worked my ass off, taught people knew things,made new things, made new friendhsips, held to personal commitments and broke through some and discovered new ones.
--- Then I went to Florida on the 1st of September to meet up with a brother in spirit to help him work on his sail boat that he purchased and learn throughout my time there to sail, speare & net fish, learn the tides, moon phases, ect. I am now a sailor! ALSO, after years of knowing about the Coral Castle and being facinated with the place I was graced with the opportunity to witness it in perosn. It invokes wonder, awareness, and limitless potential. Words really can't do the place justice, and neither can pictures (although I did send some post cards out to some of'ya), only the experience of it. I am also grateful that I was able to make the trip with just bus and my able body accompanied by my trusty backpack. OH! how traveling light allows for a greater sense of lightness of Being and a greater expanse of expression. YAY!
--- Now I am going back to M:W in two days to work and hold down the fort when the Founders/ directors leave to go on Fall Tour for a month and a half. I am looking forward to that; even with all the emmotionally emmature shinannigans that tend to be started and flare-up from the staff/ volunteers egos when "the bosses" leave. But I am happy to be returning to the mountains, fresh high altitude air, cold, outdoor living and vegetation-rich ground and the wolves and horses.
--- Then after that in about mid to late Noveber I will either be going back to work for Wilderness Quest for awhile to work, or a new wilderness therapy program that I have been offered a job at in Idaho. Yet that is still a ways out and who knows what will happen.
I do not mean for this to sound like complaining too much. For I am ranting/ wining a bit. But I am also enveloped with gratitude and bliss for all I have and what I have chosen to do....I am just REALLY tired and looking back quickly at my 'doings' and thought some of you might like to know. I am looking forward to practicing some Yoga before I hit (more like crash to) the sack.
Oh yea! Lizzie, if you don't want anymore post cards from me let me know okay.
I will futher ellaborate later on my experiences in detail when I can do so. Thank you all for being patient on wondering what the heck I was doing. I hope this info does not come to late and you where not worried about me. For in truth I do feel you all with me:)
Mr. Can't is annihalated.
-Court
" love without desire, or conditions, or limits- a pure and radiant glow in the heart that could make me giddy and sustained and glorious all at once. This love is the greatest truth in my life, and this love can never be weighed out or measured, like so much for this one and so much for that one. But is an endless and infinite flow, that the more I loved, the more love I have to give; as I give it now to everyone, as it has been given to me. In a kind, gentle and brotherly way." -Me (from my journal at sea)
I have to keep this brief, primarliy because I am exhasted as fuck!
I have had an amazing time here in Florida for the past three weeks. Saling has been one of the most challenging undertakings I have been through in a long time. Mainly because it's like learing how to walk when your a child. It IS a very different world living on the ocean (from my new found experience of a sail boat) and you have to relearn how to walk, breath, eat, sleep and overall opperate...But although it has been challenging, it has been VERY rewarding:) As I have said before, growth is a journey, not a destination. It must be continued for the rest of you life.
I look back on the last four years of my life and feel full, content, gratitude, pride, accomplishment, determination and clairity and...I think of the quote "from time to time when must attempt things that are beyond our capacity." I can say that I have spent the last four years of my life almost everyday doing just that; and as I look back at the rest of my life before that I was doing this. Before ever I had become aware of it accutely in myself.
--- I went back to Mission:Wolf on July 15th and stayed there for a month and a half. Worked my ass off, taught people knew things,made new things, made new friendhsips, held to personal commitments and broke through some and discovered new ones.
--- Then I went to Florida on the 1st of September to meet up with a brother in spirit to help him work on his sail boat that he purchased and learn throughout my time there to sail, speare & net fish, learn the tides, moon phases, ect. I am now a sailor! ALSO, after years of knowing about the Coral Castle and being facinated with the place I was graced with the opportunity to witness it in perosn. It invokes wonder, awareness, and limitless potential. Words really can't do the place justice, and neither can pictures (although I did send some post cards out to some of'ya), only the experience of it. I am also grateful that I was able to make the trip with just bus and my able body accompanied by my trusty backpack. OH! how traveling light allows for a greater sense of lightness of Being and a greater expanse of expression. YAY!
--- Now I am going back to M:W in two days to work and hold down the fort when the Founders/ directors leave to go on Fall Tour for a month and a half. I am looking forward to that; even with all the emmotionally emmature shinannigans that tend to be started and flare-up from the staff/ volunteers egos when "the bosses" leave. But I am happy to be returning to the mountains, fresh high altitude air, cold, outdoor living and vegetation-rich ground and the wolves and horses.
--- Then after that in about mid to late Noveber I will either be going back to work for Wilderness Quest for awhile to work, or a new wilderness therapy program that I have been offered a job at in Idaho. Yet that is still a ways out and who knows what will happen.
I do not mean for this to sound like complaining too much. For I am ranting/ wining a bit. But I am also enveloped with gratitude and bliss for all I have and what I have chosen to do....I am just REALLY tired and looking back quickly at my 'doings' and thought some of you might like to know. I am looking forward to practicing some Yoga before I hit (more like crash to) the sack.
Oh yea! Lizzie, if you don't want anymore post cards from me let me know okay.
I will futher ellaborate later on my experiences in detail when I can do so. Thank you all for being patient on wondering what the heck I was doing. I hope this info does not come to late and you where not worried about me. For in truth I do feel you all with me:)
Mr. Can't is annihalated.
-Court
" love without desire, or conditions, or limits- a pure and radiant glow in the heart that could make me giddy and sustained and glorious all at once. This love is the greatest truth in my life, and this love can never be weighed out or measured, like so much for this one and so much for that one. But is an endless and infinite flow, that the more I loved, the more love I have to give; as I give it now to everyone, as it has been given to me. In a kind, gentle and brotherly way." -Me (from my journal at sea)