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I feel like shit. Why? I don't even know if I can explain it. I realized I may have no life at all because right now I will be working 7 days a week at one job and 3 nights at the other. I also have school full time. A family that is dissconnected and a boyfriend who after a year decides he wants "a normal relationship". I myself feel dissconnected from just about everything and everyone. My life is becoming everything I never wanted. I never wanted to go to HFCC. I never wanted to be stuck in Dearborn. But here I am. Congratulations to me. I am 19 years old doing shit with my life. I blame myself. I just think to much a head sometimes. I have always known that I set myself up for failure. I put others before me and let them walk on me. Fuck this I need to make a new journal because some people read this and sometimes if not always I say the wrong things and piss people off. I wanted to change my life. I did. But somethings thing are screwed. Sometimes I just want to go back because I didn't a fuck abck then. Over the past twos years I have let my emotions and everybody else run the show. Back then I did. Honestly I don't know where anything is going and it drives me crazy. It just seems that all of it, my relationships, my life, just everything is going in the wrong directions. I wish I could predict the future. Because sometimes I am just wasting my time.