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For the past few days I have had this apathetic feeling to the things that really matter. That is where I fuck up the most. When I pretend to not care about things that really matter. I am fucking myself over with every desicion I am making recently. Everyday seems like it is getting worse and worse. But what really bothers me is how much all my friends tell me "If you ever need me you know that I am here". But the truth is when I start to tell them shit that is going on they either don't listen, argue, or don't care. So I have decided to just look out for myself. Fuck everybody else. I don't want you to care or worry about what I do. Because if I intend to fuck up my life at least I won't be bring anyone down with me and won't have to worry about what they think when I land myself somewhere I never needed to be. Tomorrow I see Jimmy and Brian. Me and Jimmy have been making plans for me to move to move to NYC with him. We were talking for a few hours today and he told me that he is sick of me being so far away and seeing me only a few times a year. So hopefully within in the next coming year I will be long gone and far away from the all the messes I have created here fro myself. No one can say that I belong here and need to stay so don't waste your breath unless you have a good enough reason for me to stay.
On a better note it was a riot for me to see Jon at Little Daddy's tonight. And to see what he left me for. This is dedicated to you.
When I saw you at the grocery store
You were sharin a shopping cart with her
And I couldn’t turn and run away
I didn’t know what to say
You introduced us for the first time
And I had to look her in the eye
But you could not have imagined my surprise
Can’t you see?
You’re leaving me
For an ugly girl
Does she talk about politics?
And all that stuff that used to makes me sick
Does she smoke cigars and stay up late
Oh she’s so great
Does she tell you what you want to here?
And I bet she could grow a beard
I feel better thinking you were queer
It’s not fair
I can’t compare
To an ugly girl
To an ugly girl
Lalalalalala lalalalalalala lalalalalalalala
Lalalalalalala
Lalalalalalalala
Lalalalalala hhahah
Hahaha the jokes on me
I feel jealous and I feel mean
She’s so nice
That it makes up for her face
There’s no way, do you have to keep your eyes closed
Do you have to keep the lights down low?
Oh I bet you wish you had a blind fold
CAN"T (instead of don't) you see you’re leaving me
For an ugly girl
For an ugly girl
She’s an ugly girl
A real ugly girl
Lalalalalalala lalalalalala lalalalalala lalalalalalala
She’s an ugly girl
An ugly girl ahh huhhh
On a better note it was a riot for me to see Jon at Little Daddy's tonight. And to see what he left me for. This is dedicated to you.
When I saw you at the grocery store
You were sharin a shopping cart with her
And I couldn’t turn and run away
I didn’t know what to say
You introduced us for the first time
And I had to look her in the eye
But you could not have imagined my surprise
Can’t you see?
You’re leaving me
For an ugly girl
Does she talk about politics?
And all that stuff that used to makes me sick
Does she smoke cigars and stay up late
Oh she’s so great
Does she tell you what you want to here?
And I bet she could grow a beard
I feel better thinking you were queer
It’s not fair
I can’t compare
To an ugly girl
To an ugly girl
Lalalalalala lalalalalalala lalalalalalalala
Lalalalalalala
Lalalalalalalala
Lalalalalala hhahah
Hahaha the jokes on me
I feel jealous and I feel mean
She’s so nice
That it makes up for her face
There’s no way, do you have to keep your eyes closed
Do you have to keep the lights down low?
Oh I bet you wish you had a blind fold
CAN"T (instead of don't) you see you’re leaving me
For an ugly girl
For an ugly girl
She’s an ugly girl
A real ugly girl
Lalalalalalala lalalalalala lalalalalala lalalalalalala
She’s an ugly girl
An ugly girl ahh huhhh